lost her husband over 10 years ago, and she is freaking alive. How does she do it? She’s known him her entire life, has gone through basically anything you can imagine with him, and she knows for a fact that she will have nothing like that again for as long as she still lives. Yet here I am after a 2 year relationship, still in my 20s, possibly still have a chance at finding my soulmate, and nevertheless feel like my life should be over.
I feel so freaking ungrateful. But damn it, I also can’t stop feeling all this pain and despair.
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I have a belief that there are two types of people in this world. Those who can deal with pain in a rational and non-suicidal way and those who can’t. I don’t know how they do it but I envy them for truly believing that death is not the only way out.
She’s generally not a very rational person, and she dealt with it quite emotionally, understandably so. I think she must’ve had some kind of suicidal thoughts, for example when telling her children that she doesn’t want any kind of life-prolonging medical procedures. But it seems to me that she does not consider actual suicide out of respect for her dead husband.
@funny123 You know I never thought of it that way…. that’s a good way to put it.
On average, women live longer than men.
Women go through life worried about not having enough fun, whereas men worry about paying for food, shelter, clothing and other necessities. Women get stressed out over stuff that isn’t very important, so they live longer because matching nail polish with tonight’s purse isn’t really that important in the grand scheme of things.
(Random observation, I have no scientific evidence to support this misogynistic, half baked theory).
Wow Morris, are all your female acquaintances trophy wives?
You’re not going to get females to like you if you’re this angry and bitter all the time. (Just an observation.)
Also – trophy wives are a very small minority of the population compared to the billions of hard-working women out there.
Personally, I’ve seen men die before their wives because they didn’t take good care of their health.
She grew up on a farm and worked hard her entire life. Grandpa was a smoker and drinker for most of his life, which is why he died early.