Living is exhausting.
I don’t want to do it, and not many people like me anymore anyway.
My ex was right, that there will never be a guy who doesn’t want me for anything other then sex, so maybe it wasn’t so good we broke up.
I thought I’d be okay without him, but really I can’t take care of myself.
Nobody likes a skeleton, but nobody cares either.
I am very low, and no high could mitigate that.
So down further I go.
It’s been a long time since I thought about methods.
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I think people like you, but sometimes you push them out. People see you more than a sexual object as well, you’ve got good qualities. It’s hard for people to see them when you struggle with anxiety and mood disorder.
People like me when I’m happier than I should be. Just because I don’t have a completely busted face doesn’t mean people want to talk to me. on the slight chance someone actually agrees to hang out with me, I feel the bad vibes I give off and it’s not in my head because it’s what I’ve been told.
Blah blah blah I’m just wallowing in self pity because I’m absolutely pathetic.
Besides, I know I annoy the fuck out of you even though you’ll never admit that. Whiich is completely ok, just again, you’re not “interested” in me so my bad qualities overshadow the few good ones I don’t have.
PST… Let me tell you something … the only thing guys want any girls for is sex. They will even resort to males, blow-up dolls, internet, hookers, prostitutes. They don’t even like kids. If they have kids it is a complete accident.
It’s fucked up, but that is why I don’t communicate with them. I just learned how maniacal they are this and last year.
Too bad they don’t have cities that are separated men from woman.
That is a brilliant idea.
My best days are where I don’t see a single males face
But even better than not seeing their face is when they shut the fuck up if I am cursed to run into them somewhere. Because even worse than their faces and bodies are their voices.’
I haven’t ever wanted men but all of a sudden they start raping me and molesting me few years back.
I have been raped once and sexually molested 15 times, (in last 3 years)
sexually harassed about 10 times.
What.. cause I’m a year older? It’s so fucked up.
Wow 15 times? That’s crazy, guys are something else. I almost got raped two night ago or sexually harassed or however you wanna put it cause I’m not really sure. It really is the only thing guys want unless you find people almost as fucked up as you are on the internet or something when you appear androgynous. Have you ever seen rick and morty? There actually is an episode with a plot similar to the separated cities idea, except it’s a whole other planet. The older thing is interesting tho because I feel superior when I hang with guys slightly younger cause seniority and girls mature way faster anyway. Like in a way they should be intimidated. What kind of setting are you in when you’re older?