People try to love me but it’s like I’m dead inside I don’t have any affection towards anyone anymore I’m completely numb of other people’s misery and I’m fine with it. Lost my friend a few days after visiting her she killed herself at home in her own bath tub I cant forgive myself for being so fucking miserable not my ask my only friend how she was doing and now I can’t it’s my fault. I feel pain just to hold on to the thought of her.