Everyday lately
I wake up sweating and like from a nightmare… and then I am instantly aware of the pain im in.
I’m sad …struggle to get out of bed.
I wish I knew what to do to make things better.
I know what’s missing…just don’t know how to get it. I’m tired so tired…
What’s missing…..
1. Reciprocal emotional Connections
2. Physical connection
3. Support from friends
4. Belief vision can be achieved
5. Respect
6. Trust
7. Good reputation
8. Peace of mind
Sometimes all the therapy and medications in the world just won’t work if people can’t feel part of a group. What constitutes a group is not set in stone – does not need to be a big group, but there is something about multiple people interacting that can be much stronger than just being with people one-on-one.
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That is strange
I’d prefer having none of those things other than you feeling you are lacking it
Be happy with what you have
You only have so little time on Earth
Wow
Yeah just what came to mind while reading your post…..
mostly…. sorry if you feel you lack those normal everyday things… haha
We’re in the same boat. I used to be chill and unemotional before, like a stoic kind of way but the isolation, cutting of social contacts from what could be considered as my only core circle and being surrounded by sociopaths/psychopaths is what did me in. I long for those days but unfortunately all that’s filling up my head right now is anger, revenge and a sense of hopelessness about being unable to do anything. It doesn’t help that my parents think I’m being overdramatic and they ignore what I truly feel. They think it’s just all in my head. That makes it more hurtful because they can help but they ignore my problem. I wish I could just fucking smack them but my mother is suffering from some sort of illness right now and me causing her a possible stroke and heart attack (which could very much lead to death) due to her old age would only make things worse for me and brand me as a selfish and unethical psychopath, which pretty much would do me in. I hate this world. If there was a God why did He have to put me in just to make me into a joke.