Oddly Claustrophic

Well I honestly don’t know what to open with. I was going to say that it’s been like a little under two weeks since I posted, but I doubt that matters. I don’t know why I feel compelled to track time like that. Beats me. Being on campus has made me oddly claustrophobic. All these fucking people rushing to their classes, or activities, or lunch. It just makes me feel so constrained. In high school things were set with a set schedule. You’d show up at 9, leave at 4 and just sit in 4 or 5 different rooms inbetween. Now it just feels so off. Of course I go to my classes, but not with the same sense of “purpose” as before. Purpose in the sense that I know what I’m doing. It just feels like I’m drifting. All these people are just so mechanical like. I mean you can’t really escape from all of it where ever you go, but when I really observe everyone, it just seems so surreal. The way they act and look and proceed with everything. This is just rambling at this point. I don’t know, it just doesn’t feel right. I joined three clubs. Wanted to actually try having friends and doing this now that I’m in college. Probably won’t stick to it. One of them is just like a goof off club. D&D and video games. Hopefully I can actually start making friends to play with. Going solo for so long is so damn lonely. Fuck I don’t know. Thanks for listening I think?