I…I just idk. Okay, lets start out i am Ethan and i am young. I still have a lot of life left with me. I recently moved schools, so i am doing online school and i am alone in life, No friends, No one to talk to, and i was bullied for most of my life so far. I know it is not as bad as other peoples stories but it still is enough for depression, When i am alone i don’t feel safe with my thoughts, so much going through my head, should i end it? Should i cut? I used to sharpen up popsicle sticks and repeatedley stab, but i am past those times, now i am more alone then ever, let alone the bullies aren’t here to bully me any more, so yay! but i am weird inside i have suicidal thoughts, sometimes, and i don’t want to tell anyone close to me about it so they don’t get worried, and i want to tell them that i might have depression(I probobaly do). Well okay lets start off with me, I was bullied since 3rd grade and know i am in seventh grade, people would always call me fat, and that is mainly the one thing i am really beat up about, then it got worse, where one day i was hanging out with my friends(Who i can’t really talk to now) and this kid named Jackson came and started punching me, As my former friends watched, also as one was making fun of me. Then the other kids in my grade started talking about it, Constantly! and the week after it happened i had a knife, and was about to stab myself, Until i died, then i thought about my mom and dad and that is the only reason why i am alive today if i had any other parents i would’ve ended it all. Please if can, give advice on how to deal with my possible depression. Thanks
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Have you tried medication yet?
No
Soon i may get some
Don’t end your life. The medications will hopefully help you, just hold on
I don’t know if i have the stuff to besides a knife, a pistol and an assault rifle, and besides, I have a a few people i deeply care for, so i won’t become suicidal any time soon.
And again if i were to i would probably go into an ally or something so my parents couldn’t see my dead body.
Actually i have the perfect things for suicide, but not an ally way
If you can’t live for yourself, live for the others around you. If you don’t want to worry your parents, ask your doctor for anti-depressants. Just think if I can get through this hard time in my life, I can escape. I can become a new person and live. You just have to get through this for that to happen.
Do your parents know you have depression? it may help to tell them, just if they are supportive and you know they will be understanding, I was worried too, about coming out with it and all that was going on with me, I texted them and they were very understanding, but you have to prepare for some difficult stuff. getting out that state of mind is hard work and slightly annoying I was being watched at all times, my phone was checked, couldn’t stay in my room for too long, but that was the way they kept me away of doing the stuff i did, i cut too. You have to start changing how you think, and cutting off the negative from your thoughts and actions. you also need to get things out, you need to feel that you aren’t carrying the weight alone. you can message me if you want, am0142186@gmail.com of course there is no problem if you dont. take care.
Do your parents know you have depression? it may help to tell them, just if they are supportive and you know they will be understanding, I was worried too, about coming out with it and all that was going on with me, I texted them and they were very understanding, but you have to prepare for
some difficult stuff.
getting out that state of mind is hard work and slightly annoying I was being watched at all times, my phone was checked, couldn’t stay in my room for too long, but that was the way they kept me away of doing the stuff i did, i cut too. You have to start changing how you think, and cutting off the negative from your thoughts and actions. you also need to get things out, you need to feel that you aren’t carrying the weight alone. you can message me if you want, am0142186@gmail.com of course there is no problem if you dont. take care.
getting out that state of mind is hard work and slightly annoying I was being watched at all times, my phone was checked, couldn’t stay in my room for too long, but that was the way they kept me away of doing the stuff i did, i cut too.
You have to start changing how you think, and cutting off the negative from your thoughts and actions. you also need to get things out, you need to feel that you aren’t carrying the weight alone. you can message me if you want, am0142186@gmail.com of course there is no problem if you dont. take care.
Welcome to the club.!! I know exactly how you feel.