I guess facebook and social media is where all the deep shit is. I just created my first facebook account and i saw all the shit my family members post and some of it surpises me. Its not even just family members but also old friends. I am shocked by their distrust in me. They have all these problems going on and yet they can’t talk to me about it in person. They wanna go tell their “homies” first before i even find out about it. Which naturally begs the question what the hell am i to them? I am their brother, son, friend. So why do they think I’m not trustworthy? This kind of thing makes me want to start fresh and let em have it how they want it. There’s also too much drama in my family and my parents wanna play the victim role when in fact their kids were the victims. But fuck being a victim! I’m done being a victim, i bring up this deep shit in person because i keep things real in my relationships. Apperantly being honest with one another is taboo nowadays. So after relentless efforts to gain their trust I’ve chosen to finally make their false judgement of me a truth. I have left the nest and my hometown into new territory. I am ready to heal and start a new life. I’m just sicken tired of all the lies and fake connections these people came with. Sometimes the most toxic people are your family members and even your friends. I’m ready for change and if they ain’t then thats fine with me because i wont wait for them. I’m doing this for me because their negativity is having a bad influence on my life. Drinking, drugs, emotional, and physical abuse is something i can’t withstand any longer. I’ve had enough of that life and now I’m suddenly the bad guy for not wanting part in that. Over these past couple of months I have healed and grown more than i ever thought possible. I have started to hang around a more positive crowd and it has really improved my ability to pursue happiness. So I’m gonna continue on this path of financial struggle paying rent and bills because I’d much rather struggle with money than to struggle with an unhealthy mind and body. Once the mind and body is stable i can then stabilize my financial situation. Money issues are a piece of cake to me compared to being dads personal punching bag. It’s very low of parents to use their children as therapeutic punching bags whether its verbally, physically or both. Kinda got off on a tangent there.
7 comments
Good for you, you found a way to escape(somehow). But for me I’m stuck here forever.
Look on the bright side; You haven’t seen your 70-year-old grandmother twerking in an unnecessarily provocative video.
Lmao…..that sounds pretty scary.
This! This is what I’m talking about! 🙂
Congratulations, I hope you find great friends who can become your true family!
Sounds like you are in a family of psychopaths. I, alike darkabyss, am stuck with them. I am not worried about my body mind or financial situation like you. But I am scared of my “family.” I’ve fucking hated them since I was a child. Before I even turned double-digits. They have ruined every year of my life in a million different ways. It’s either I leave and move very far away and never even think of them. Or if that isn’t possible then I know suicide is the better choice then continuing to be trapped with them. Because when I try to leave they will try to re-trap me, and make up some bullshit. They are INSANE. They are more like abductors that hold me hostage than family. I don’t want ’em
This is what I’m talking about. I’d rather be poor but have supportive family and friends who lift you up and increase your confidence rather than be from a wealthy family but live in a toxic environment. At least if you live in a positive environment with people who support you, you get to make something of yourself. But with family putting you down, the chances of making something of yourself is small. Money can be found but love and support are hard to find.
I envy you for being able to get out. But I’m also so very happy for you that you were able to get out. Someday I hope to have the same strength.