im 21 years old with nothing to look forward to in life. im not studying, im not working, im just–im just a waste of space.
so i set a date. and i hope at that day that plan will come through.
but i’ll admit that it’ll be sad leaving my friends and my 6 years old sister behind. theyre the only ones, the only reasons why im still around.
i have a crush, and he lives at the end of the world. so far from me. and i love him now and promised id stay for him but sometimes i just dont know anymore.
he lost one of his brothers, when he was 14, in this way. and i dont want to hurt him like this but i set a date.
i just have no reasons to be alive anymore.
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Deine schwester – a reason for you to live.
Well go be with him, and if you can’t, Im sure you can find another…..
I was down for a long time but now have a beautiful lady I met….
You can do it…
I’m 21 as well with a girl on the other side of the world. She’s going through life things right now and we don’t talk much. It’s hard, but you already know that feeling. I think about death all the time as I work a job that I hate.
I consider just leaving, but the thought of what could be, always stops me.
Honestly I have ben through what you are dealing with right now…
You need to be careful and protect yourself,,,
Many girls/women will simply use a guy as a crutch to get them through a bad time,,, not saying she is like that,,,, but most do, and it won’t be easy for you to tell until the very end,,
I would keep your distance,,, find a more realistic one,,,
And that too will make you feel at least a little better.