FIrst thing first please DO NOT leave a comment saying “It’s just a boy get over it.” or anything in that category because I wouldn’t make tell you something to make you feel like your problem(s) you may be having less daunting all of our problem(s) are a big deal to us…and I would like it if you would make mine seem smaller than it is..cause it may not be big to you but it’s huge to me.
Okay…My name is Gracie,i’m 14 years old about to turn 15 in 5 months.My life has had it’s up and downs,just like the rest of you.I just can’t seem to get anything right these days my life used to be perfect.The perfect boyfriend,the perfect friends,the perfect grades everything was going fantastic almost too good to be true.Until…I lost him….he left like it all meant nothing to him,like he couldn’t care less if I died right this moment…I was so damaged and broken I had nowhere to turn….I cutted every night for 4 months,cried myself to sleep every night for 4 months.He dumped me a week and one day before christmas,not because he wanted to his mom had made him…he said we could still act like lovers,he had came to my house that night to tell me in person he was dumping me.He told me to video chat him the next day at school at lunch,so I did and as soon as I saw his face I broke into tears,I told him I couldn’t talk to him right then without crying I would talk to him later…not knowing I wouldn’t hear from him again for the next 4 months…..that was the last day he texted me.I was really hurt…I felt like I had done something wrong…and I had the urge of wanting to go back and fix what I had done..but I couldn’t and thats what made it worst.I slowly started getting back to my old self,the happy me,the funny me,the hyper me.But he popped back up in my life again,out of nowhere…I get on my messages and I see I have a message from him…and I text back,when I do he’s pouring out his soul to me.Saying i’m sorry Gracie,I didn’t mean to hurt you,my mom had my phone so I couldn’t text you kind of bullshit.He tells me he still loves me..and being a dumbass I am,I fell for it,I believed him,I took him back.I loved him…or what I thought was love.it wasn’t even a week after we were dating that he started ignoring me again….he ignored three days straight,and I wasn’t gonna let what he had done happen again,I wasn’t going to let myself go through that bullshit again…so I go to message him this morning and he had blocked me,so I get on my friends phone and had texted him this:
Are u fucking serious? if your gonna dump a girl tell her don’t leave her wondering if he still loves her or not because he’s been ignoring her.And you didn’t have to block me all you had to say was hey it’s over or some shit,just shows a sign of immaturity…I wanted to believe that it wasn’t you who was truly doing this I wanted to believe that someone else had access to your phone and you couldn’t talk to me….but now that I see it’s you that has looked at my message and then decides to ignore me(I believe it’s you,my gut instinct is telling me it’s been you) and then block me but hey it’s okay..you don’t want me in your life i’ll just walk out…if this is truly daemeon why did you do it again after you said you wouldn’t? Why did you lie and say you loved me? I still love you Daemeon but I can’t continue to be with someone who can’t talk to me….when you are allowed to be with me and still want to be with me we can give it another go but till then I can’t be with you…I can’t have a boyfriend that doesn’t talk to me…yes I will still wear your jacket,Yes I will still say your mine,and yes i’m here for you…text me back soon if you still want to be together but if you don’t i’ll have to go my separate ways just till we meet again or are allowed to talk again.
Still no word from him,it was the hardest thing i’ve had to do…I just hope I made the right decision…
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I think you totally have reason to be upset, and I also think you did the right thing. It’s hard to say if he meant it or not, so you’re totally in line here. Hang in there xoxo
Thank you for your support,I would like to say that you are one of the people that have made my day today,all of the people that have commented and have read my story have made my day just by listening.People never really listen to me unless it benefits them and even sometimes they don’t listen,sometimes I think i’m just wasting my breath talking because they never listen.I guess the reason why I get in trouble,well used to get in trouble a lot is because I don’t get attention,not even from my family so I act out to get attention,I saw it like attention was attention good or bad at least someone is noticing i’m alive.No one really paid attention when I had done something good,I would be proud of myself but then it made me feel like whatever I done wasn’t good enough cause no one paid attention so I gave up and decided that maybe if I act up they’ll at least acknowledge i’m here,but now I don’t really care who is there and who isn’t there I know i’m alive and i’m worthy,that I do amazing things.But i’m glad that you have read and listened to what I had to say I feel like I actually have somewhat of a voice now.
Gracie,
Thanks for your post, I’m sorry oh have to go through this struggle. Love is a complicated thing, there are different types and degrees and sometimes it hurts. And it’s not something we can even fully control. But sincerely you sound like a smart girl, and a good person. You obviously care deeply, you’re considerate, patient and long-suffering(longer-suffering means, having or showing patience in spite of troubles, especially those caused by other people.). All great qualities. The best type of love is with someone who matches these kind of qualities with you. From the sounds of it this guy doesn’t seem good or smart although I’m sure he has some good qualities, most people do. But he certainly isn’t being very considerate of you. Keep your chin up, some things in life can’t be imagined only felt and I promise you you will feel better things. You will meet better people. I’m not saying what you had wasn’t real or even telling you to move on. What you feel is very real and very important. We can’t always choose whom we love. But I hope you can keep your head up knowing you deserve the best. I went through a lot of that as a teen too, and it was all real. It probably doesn’t make sense but it gets more real, like love only gets better. When it’s with the right person. It’s enlightening, strengthening, comforting and so much more. You’re amazing don’t underestimate your worth, respect yourself and please don’t hurt yourself, be the type of person you want to be with and good things will come your way. I sincerely hope things get better soon. And I believe you made the right choice. Keep moving forward, you got this.
Thank you,You have made me have hope.You are on of the people that have made my day just by reading my story and listening to me.Makes me feel like I have somewhat of a voice now,and that i’m not alone that it can only get better from here.Thank you so much.
I totally get it. This just happened to me. I’m 44 (old I know) but I swear this stuff really hurts. My (now ex) husband disappeared for weeks. Not speaking to me or the kids. He was a stable moral dependable man One minute And then suddenly he is scary, and verbally abusive. And a liar. Guess what? My ex was cheating. Just no words for how heartbroken our family has been. I am so proud of how you have handled this. And right now you’re my hero. These people aren’t worthy of us. My advice? Heal. Heal as best you can. Find a way to truly know your worth and don’t take abuse. You are valuable. Some people are predators and can fool us for a little while but eventually we see them for who they are. Be glad you know now. I’m so so sorry that you’ve gone through this, but use it. Use it to grow and form into the woman you are meant to be!!! It hurts though, believe me, it’s beyond agony.
Also don’t give up on love. I am trying not to. ??
Thank you for listening to my story,you are on of the people that have made my day today,there was three of you that have put a smile on my face.I’m sorry about what had happened with your family,I know how it feels to have your family split up.My mom and dad are divorced,have been for quite a long time.Me and my oldest sister were drug abused by our parents when we were young,I was still a baby and my sister was 4,it was after my other sister(the second oldest) had died,she had died before I was born she was only 11 months,and my parents were devastated so they started using drugs,like very bad drugs,me and my sister had moved in with our grandparents when I was 11 months,but my grandmother had beat my sister one day when she was in the bath and my grandmother blamed it on my granddad and made my sister say it was our granddad my grandmother told her she would kill her if she didn’t,so my grandfather almost went to jail for a very long time until my sister told the truth and my grandmother was put in jail for 4 years and on probation until my sister turned 18,my grandmother wasn’t allowed to be around us alone,so we had to leave and go to foster care and we were there from when i was three to five and what made it worse was that every home said I had to go that they hated me but they would keep my sister.But my sister didn’t leave me because before we left she had promised our dad she wouldn’t leave me behind.So then my grandfather had adopted me and my sister and we had come pack home to my granddads and i’ve been living there since I was 5 and i’m 14 now,but my sister left when she was 16 and I was 12 because my granddad had hit her pretty bad so she was adopted by our uncle’s wife’s parents,so from 12 on i grew up without my sister and my little brother and sister were taken away from my parents when I came back because they started drugs again.So I cant see them until they’re 18 and I doubt they even remember me.but anyways I know it will get better God is just testing you to see how strong you are,yes it hurts but it will be okay…And you put a really big smile on my face when you said I was your hero…my face lite up when I saw that thank you…
Love is just as necessary as food and water. Some people are blessed with many sources of love. Others have to fight just for the scraps that some would dismiss as trivial. No one would say, “It was just a slice of bread” to a starving person who had their last bit of food ripped out of their hands, and yet those fortunate in love often dismiss the loss of a relationship that helped keep someone afloat. I hope you find a stable source of love, whether it is a TRUE friend, a boyfriend who won’t let you down (although I wouldn’t recommend another boyfriend until you fully grieve for, and grow from your current loss), or even a teacher you can trust to listen to you (yes some of them do love you… they can’t say it without people getting the wrong idea) or at the very least people online who commiserate with your pain. You have every right to your feelings, and you deserve love.
hi, i’m thirteen… i’ll be your age in four months.
if i’m being completely honest, i think you need to move on. there are plenty of other boys who could treat you better than this. and, it’s not something worth hurting yourself over. whatever you’re feeling won’t be forever.
To be honest I know,your right it’s just really hard he saved me from a bad relationship,where a guy had used me for sex and left me three days later….But hey one thing I have to say is be careful,if i’m correct you’ll be going to high school next year and you’ll be a freshman meaning you’ll be fresh meat to the seniors,don’t let them get you down the seniors always pick on the freshman.I mean it gets better but there will be a few ups and downs. DON’T make the same mistake I did not focus on my studies and focused on some stupid boy who ended up screwing me over big time in the end..so DON’T go out with the first guy you meet that is older than you(he doesn’t even gotta be older than you)that thinks your cute because you never know were it will end up at in the end I mean my friends told me this one guy was no good and I shouldn’t be with him but I didn’t listen and now I wish I did because he ended up taking advantage of me and force himself on me in the boys locker room and thats when my virginity was stolen from me and I can’t get it back.Just be very careful remember the last girl pregnant wins,and that senior doesn’t love you they say that but they are actually saying I wanna get in your pants. High school is not a walk in the park…. but enjoy it though…go to homecoming, go to the football games, and just have fun because it may be tough but it’s also the funnest time of your life if you wanna be honest.And another little thing is that your 9th grade year is your toughest one the higher you go the easier it gets as long as you do your work.
you were raped? well… that’s really bad, did you call the cops?