Trapped

Feeling like the dark clouds above my head won’t stop coming over. The rain, the down pour, the thunder and wind, I feel like I am suffocating. The solid ground beneath me is tearing open and I am going to fall right through it. I feel so alone and  worthless. I keep waiting for things to get better and they only get worse. I feel that my dark clouds are here to stay for a while. I hate it when the  storm settles over me. It really is just a matter of time before I try again. I worked so hard I thought to never have to feel that way again. I mean I felt so numb and dull, like I just needed to find a way to get by and then somehow I could see it getting better, It just isn’t. I thought about cutting again, but it does not stop the pain like it used too. I want to fade away to darkness. The storm will sweep me away and then it will stop. The damage will be permanent but nothing anyone can rebuild from and the best part? The storm will be gone, the sun will shine and silent tears will be present.

Thanks for reading,

Soup.