i don’t know but i just feel like i want to kill myself today.
it’s like sophia said on the golden girls, “if you kill yourself today, you can’t change your mind next week.”
i sort of feel like that, maybe a tiny bit, but i’ve just got this overwhelming feeling of dread, just picturing myself dead, like going under anesthesia and never waking up, or maybe falling from a great height so that it looks accidental. i feel like it is really the end of the road for me.
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I don’t want to say I’m sorry for you because it isn’t what you need. I hope you’re able to get through this moment, and the next, that you got through the last. That there’s something tangible for you to hold onto. You aren’t alone. It doesn’t help, almost makes it worse, but you aren’t alone. The pain doesn’t have to win. I don’t know when it’ll end but there’s always a chance that it may and that might be worth waiting for.
Yeah and the worse is if you go for drugs you must be patient collecting all the stuff.