I’ve been so stressed out these past few months. I wan’t to be an actor, but I guess life is just unfair and I don’t really know how can I achieve my dream. I’ve been delaying everything for almost 6 years because I am not that brave enough to follow what I want in life. I’m currently in a job that requires me to put so much effort that I can’t do it properly. I am also very envious of one of my acquaintance because he is currently becoming famous and was awarded. We shared the same dream. I wonder where did I go wrong. I am pressured because I am getting older that I may never be able to start going for it. Also, I’m currently thinking of ending my relationship with my partner for 4 years. We are in a long-distance ralationship and it seems that she doesn’t really love me. She’s been asking for more time and doesn’t want me to hangout with my very few friends. Recently she asked me to choose between her and my friends. I am very much pressured everyday to provide the time she wants. She expects too much from me. There are times that, I just want to end my life here and now so that I won’t be pressured on how to break up with her and hurt her feelings. I really don’t want to hurt her feelings and I also don’t want to continue this relationship because I am pressured from everything else that is happening in my life right now. I don’t know what to do. I just want everything to end. All these unpleasant feelings makes me want to end my life. I want to escape from these harsh realities of life. I need help.
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First, Please dont harm your self you have so much to live for. In life there’s going to be tough decisions you have to make for you, I know it sounds selfish but were only given one life an how much time we have we will never know. Do what makes you happy, don’t have regrets an if this person truly loves you she will understand in time an if not you don’t need people like that no way. I’m on my own journey trying to figure out life and how to live my best life but untill you make a start you will always be in this situation. I wish you well my friend as you continue your journey. An if someone is where you wanna be congratulate them an put the work in to get there, when you compare yourself to others you’ll always find impurities but theirs no life better than yours.
Your comment made me feel a little bit better. Thank you. I still doubt myself and my capabilities though.
I understand how you felt for your dream, i wanted to be a digital artist but, well i end up in culinary, i dont really hate cooking so it doesn’t bother me that badly.
About your relationship, it must be tough. Not much people could handle a long distance relationship it puts too much burden on the both you, i also don’t feel its right to just end your 4 year relationship because “you need space”, if possible you could just tell her she’s pressuring you way too much.
It seems as if she’s just lonely that she wants more of your attention and jealous from the attention your friends are getting.
I don’t suggest for you to kill yourself or anything just yet, who knows you might find the courage you need for your dream, also i hope for the best for your relationship.
I dont really feel all that helpful so i’ll just wish you find your happiness.