my mom told me to go drown about a year ago. the thought stuck in my mind and it really just cant be erased or ignored to the point that i actually conidered it. she doesnt love me. it’s obvious. i’m pointless. pointless to the point of my own mother wanting me dead. i decided to be numb and quiet. a bit recently, she said that if i would kill myself she wouldnt care. she shamed me in front of everyone and cursed at me. i know that i can’t bear this anymore. i tried to get help but she told me that everyone experiences anxiety and depression. she said that i wanted attention. i dont. if i wanted attention i would have made a big deal out of everything, but i didnt, and i kept it to me until i was given the chance to reach out. so you know what? i’m done. i give up. nobody’s willing to help me.
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Sounds tragic dude, there must be something very wrong with your mom (perhaps childhood trauma or idk i can only guess). Any mother would never tell her child to go kill himself even if he did something very horrible. If anyone cant help you in your situation maybe you can help yourself. Get a job, move out perhaps with some roomate so its cheeper. You dont have to be stuck in this destructive household and relationship just coz its your mom.
Free yourself.
Your mother has a serious problem, and it isn’t you. Please don’t let yourself be defined by your mother’s craziness.
So sorry about that. Nobody deserves to be told to kill themselves. My mom is also horrible but she’s not that bad.