I am going to assume that the majority of people on here are younger. Probably in their teens ans twenty’s. I find it sad that so many young people are so lonely and possibly suicidal.
I am middle aged and due to a series of unfortunate events and genetics, I have been alienated from society, confined to dealing with the demons in my head due to my mental illness. I was able to cope through medication, the benefit of being younger and having friends and the ability to work. All of this has been stripped away. It’s hard to make friends and share a history of stories and adventures when you have to start all over half way through your life. When I was a kid I could make a friend and be happy in a few hours but now it seems impossible.
I have physical back issues which, when I was twenty, never thought would happen to me. I always thought I would basically be in excellent health, have a million friends, and excel at a job I liked that paid a lot of money. But it usually never turns out that way. Life has little quarks that can turn your life upside down in a matter of minutes.
I am not saying being young is easy but I definitely took my health and attitude and energy and my spark for life for granted.
I hope that everyone on here finds what they are looking for because in the grand scale of things, we are only here for a very short period of time.
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Billions of Ants. I think youth has it’s own trials and some of us have bad starts in life, and are all trapped in a very chaotic society with chaotic lives. There’s so many people, all very different… I think even if some of us wished with all our heart for happier healthier lives, it’s another thing makin it reality. Not to sound unpleasant but it’s one thing saying those things in hindsight but another living it in the present moment.
I am glad that you remember those younger days with a smile, or that’s how it seems to me from a distance. I truly hope you can make it better now, too, no matter your health issues or economical situation. It may seem like an unsalted joke but Diogenes, – one of the most intelligent but also peculiar person, from ancient times, when thinking about his personality – was a homeless. Many contemporary philosophers like Descartes were also poor. But they all had – and many still do have – on thing in common : Their mind is free from their material world. I don’t say this to brutally induce the need of thinking or seeking of theoretical knowledge per se, but to underline our infinite freedom that we poses within ourselves. You like to read ? Read ! You like to tell stories ? Tell stories or write them ! J. K. Rowling wrote her novels later in life. And Kant published his most essentials books after the age of 50. You like to talk to people ? Socrates never wrote a thing, he just talked ! And are so much many people that we could all give as examples. And yes, we are not all fated to have such great impact or fame or whatever we might have in mind … BUT … we need to dream of such things to be happy ? I personally, i would be grateful to the divine if i can help one soul .. one little soul .. like my teacher did for me. From the inside, it may not seem like we do much, but for those in need … oh, it may mean the world to them . Money and fame won’t go with me in the grave, but if one soul will remember after i am gone, i will be happy in my coffin… altrough when i think about it, it kinda sound selfish doesn’t it ? I talk to much. Thank you for your post and i hope you hang on there and try your best. Have a good day . – BL
Thank you for your kind message. I am young, my mental health is degrading. I don’t know what to do. How did you find medication? I was on antidepressants once they just made me manic and nervous and paranoid. No one will diagnose me as I put on a very good act in public as I’m scared of being outed as a ‘freak’ but I don’t know how long I can even rely on that for, everyday I feel less and less in control or stable I feel like I’m living the wrong life, I should have died long ago and that is why I feel so wrong. I am an 18 year old girl. No one will believe me when I say I have mental health issues. It seems every 18 Yr old girl wants them nowadays. I had a bad childhood filled with bad memories that I have forgotten and perhaps good ones I don’t believe exist. I have lived so many years of life without thinking about anything other than how inherently wrong I am as a being. I feel both older and younger than my peers, with the aging of analysing my whole life and the youth of not having a clue about anything after sleepwalking years. I go out, I get drunk, I party. That’s fine. But then I go home to my friends house and sit in the corner scratching my skin off stifling my cries and trying to not be scared. Sometimes I feel so clear of mind, right now though I’m sad or something other I can’t feel my emotions every properly, they’re nonsense, however now I feel relatively clear, but other times I feel so blurred. I’m always okay though, please don’t worry about me. thank you so much for reading I am okay I promise thank you for the kind words. I am keeping on going with each day of life, I hope I 2ill find what I want, like you said. All I want is to sleep at night, and live in the real world properly.
I got medication from psychiatrists. I have been on so many and now they basically don’t work anymore. Medication, I believe in hindsight should only be used in the short term while you find and address what is really causing your distress. It’s a lot easier the younger you are. Medication just masked my real self and now I don’t even know who I am anymore or what my purpose is. Life is supposed to have ups and downs and before meds we were forced to face our fears and emotions.