My mindset hasn’t changed since January, I still envision myself not existing anymore but I’ve gained more sorrow because I’m around my family more. It gives me guilt, makes me feel so selfish. For once I just wish I could envision being where I feel is home and building the life I’ve missed out on. I wish there was nothing wrong with me and I wish I was strong enough for my family and for my husband. I want to be better. Its almost, December.
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I too live with a family. a partner and a daughter. Its hard to be sad around my family and i feel guilty just like you. I want to show them positivity. I never really felt like i’ve had a home and that is i feeling i wish no one had to feel. makes me feel unbelonging. I really hope you will find your home and get the strength to build the life you’ve missed. I also wish the best for your family, you included!
I saw you old post from January. I see we have a lot in common. i myself is only 20 years old and realistically speaking, have a lot of years ahead of me. but how can i build a home on a broken foundation.