Sometimes I feel the most alone person in the world. No friends and no one who cares about me. My mother is a fanatic religious who doesn’t accept me as a woman and keeps insisting on treating me a way a hate. She knows I hate it and that makes me feel even more sad, but she doesn’t care. She won’t chance because of her imaginary friend. I tried so hard to be well this year, to feel better, but I keep walking in circles, always ending where I began. Last week I felt that wish to cut myself again after one year and I’m thinking again about suicide. I always feel like my life won’t change no matter how I try. It’s like if I don’t fit this world. I would like to sleep and not wake up again because when I’m awake I feel like I’m living a nightmare.
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You and me both. I feel like I’m getting nowhere with my life.
Religion is a scam and a poison. I’m sorry that your mom is so deluded and corrupted by it.
I hope things get better for you. But, I also understand exactly how you feel. I have had very few to no friends my entire life. So, things don’t always get better unfortunately. If possible, I would be your friend.
Hang in there.
People poisoned religion. It’s not a scam though. It can be very liberating for some people.
I am very sorry for you as my parents have also been religious fanatics… But I have learned to see what is good in them and even in their religion…
It’s terrible what you pass through and I can relate to you because this is how I felt some years ago.
I hope a miracle will happen in your life too and you don’t succumb to the abyss of suicide.