Today, I told a friend of mine that I’ve been feeling depressed. I told her about how I didnt like my job, how I wish I wouldve gone to school for music instead, how I was concerned about my Adderall use, how I’m 27 and still single. Her response was ” You forget the world is so big. The walls you see are man’s creation. You need to see past the illusion of the society we live in.”
Illusions indeed. I got so caught up in what I thought everyone else might have been judging me about that I hadn’t stopped to think that not many people were judging me like that at all, because those are all superficial things. I kept myself in situations I didnt find fulfilling because I cared more about acceptance and having a “place in the world”. I became my own worst critic, and even worse, I forgot how to think outside of the box.
There’s nothing wrong with going back to school. Love can be found at any age, and drug use can be addressed. The walls aren’t real. If you’re judging yourself over being single, over not getting anything done, over your living situation, over a hobby you like, etc., those things arent real. Those are expectations we’ve learned to place on ourselves.
Anyway, I thought I’d share this in case anyone else believes in walls too. The truth is that we’re free. When we care about what people think, we lose who we really are.