It is a big fear I share with you then. Personally I hate everything that I am that the simple fact to continue having an existence would be a cruel punishment to me, no matter how many unicorns they are supposed to have up there. I made myself the promise to live through 2019 and it feels like an eternity (and I’m already beginning to regret that promise). And that’s just a year so I don’t even want to consider being eternal.
I want to make it through another year too but even the days seem like forever now so I have it at a few months. Makes me wonder why I don’t just go now – nothing will get better.
I think there’s another life (consciousness) after this, but as long as it’s new, no memory, without all the crap ive accumulated from the mistakes ive made, then it will be worlds better than this. If I’m wrong and there’s no more life, EVEN BETTER.
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It is a big fear I share with you then. Personally I hate everything that I am that the simple fact to continue having an existence would be a cruel punishment to me, no matter how many unicorns they are supposed to have up there. I made myself the promise to live through 2019 and it feels like an eternity (and I’m already beginning to regret that promise). And that’s just a year so I don’t even want to consider being eternal.
I want to make it through another year too but even the days seem like forever now so I have it at a few months. Makes me wonder why I don’t just go now – nothing will get better.
I think there’s another life (consciousness) after this, but as long as it’s new, no memory, without all the crap ive accumulated from the mistakes ive made, then it will be worlds better than this. If I’m wrong and there’s no more life, EVEN BETTER.