All it was meant painless.

but I obsessed myself believing it is actual death.

by living I find myself mysterious always more done to finish. I’m aware that i could develope asperger.

slowy the end is announcing but I keep having fears. Yes, this is paranoid.

i must be schizophrenic. things get lost. I lose my cool by living.

lost it but now I’m here just with another. I feel human.

but painless became hedonism. I’m egotistical, I lose friends. Must be a sociopath.