All it was meant painless.
but I obsessed myself believing it is actual death.
by living I find myself mysterious always more done to finish. I’m aware that i could develope asperger.
slowy the end is announcing but I keep having fears. Yes, this is paranoid.
i must be schizophrenic. things get lost. I lose my cool by living.
lost it but now I’m here just with another. I feel human.
but painless became hedonism. I’m egotistical, I lose friends. Must be a sociopath.