Yes, it does.
If you leave me alone with something, I will master it quickly without any guidance. If you stand over me and tell me how to do it, I’ll bumble around like a toddler. If more than two people are in a room with me talking, I will go manic. Just one, I’m fine. If you mention pop culture references to me, they’ll sail so far over my head that I’ll hear them whiz by, but I won’t be able to spot them in the stratosphere. Then I’ll feel like I said something strange and wonder what the hell just happened.
If you say something with a blurry connotation, I probably won’t pick up on it and take the literal meaning of what you said as what you meant. Then the whole world will be confused. Why? I wish I knew.
Am I schizoid? Probably a little, at least. Would some meds help? They’d make me feel better about it, but that’s about it. Would therapy help? For about two hours. Would booze help? Hell yeah. I mean, until I’m sober again. I’m not sure if the world’s a stupid place, or I’m just spiraling down a rabbit hole. It’s hard to say anymore. Probably a bit of both.
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Is it anxiety?
If it were that simple, anxiety meds would help a lot more than they do. As is, they just make me not care about the problem.
Who said anxiety is simple. What you wrote resonates.
I’ve sort of eliminated anxiety as the source of the problem, but I guess it never is the source of the problem. Something has to lead to anxiety, no? When I’m on anxiety meds, I act a lot more like I described because they dampen my inhibition and make it a lot more apparent. I think it has more to do with splitting my attention. I ain’t good at that.
Yeah it could be a collage of things but I don’t think you’re crazy
anxiety? yeah i got it, i have a few drinks and it numbs it a bit, sleep helps as well, I think I’ve grown use to it? Pull out the vodka just because i like it 🙂 I do most things on my own and seem to do them well especially when I’ve had a few! I like being silly and laughing that always helps with my anxiety, i think the world is a stupid place, and shouldn’t be taking to seriously, i try to enjoy the things i like.
Being crazy’s not a bad thing. I’d think being normal is a bad thing. Most of the normal people I’ve met are crazy and weird in the most boring way imaginable.
Alcohol definitely helps me with anxiety. Otherwise it cripples me. I literally cannot move. It’s terrible.
I just got a nice IPA that’s curing what ales me right now. Har har har. How are you, clipped-wings?
I’m having some brandy. I usually drink beer. There’s so much to choose from! I’m on a mission to try them all!