There’s no easier way to say this – I need help. I don’t care who, what, when, where, why or how, I just care that I get help. I don’t get how everyone can say there is so much help you can get out there when every time I try to seek help, I fail. Is it the universe’s way of telling me that I’m hopeless and can’t be helped or I don’t deserve to be? Because that is how it feels. The amount of times that I have tried to reach out to a professional and been unsuccessful is not okay. It genuinely confuses the fuck out of me but oh well. All this supposed help out there, why is there none for me? Like I used to just want to be able to chat with someone but now I actually seriously need help, need advice and need a professional as my shit has developed. So I’ll say it again, somebody please help me because I sure need it!