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Note to myself.. (a disappointment in minor freestyle – nothing serious)

by CuLt_Of_ThE_mOoN

I’m an asshole when I drink. Sometimes it makes me sick. How much lower do I sink – when I’m showing you my pics..? Note to self.. It’s a hassle, but be stable. They can do such wrong.. And when you take it off the shelf – ask yourself – what have they REALLY brought up to the table. Is it really long…? The waiting – I mean.. Did they wait really long…? Eh-hem.. And just when you think “They don’t judge me for my kinks” – Oh.. You may be fun, but  non-judgment is extinct, and they really love to pick on the unpopular ones….  *nudge nudge-wink wink..*

I should wear something formal like a suit, and knock door-to-door looking for remorse without a dispute.. Did that fucking compute…?? Or will I go off course – overdosing on the truth….                                                                        *knock knock* … “Hello there.. We’re with the cult of the moon – and did you know that the son of god is coming back soon…?” *Great.* They said I need church, and sound choices.. Not a 6 pack of beer – and don’t listen to the voices… You’re not conflicted – but your values are distorted. You got the long straw, but you’re acting like you got shorted. Don’t you know that bad behavior’s not rewarded…?  *Note to Moon.. No, no… You can’t afford it. There is no one “god” – you’re overthinking shit again… Fucking BEHAVE already..! Just because there isn’t a “hell” doesn’t mean you won’t end up in some unpleasant place again.. Just sayin.. Get your shit together.. Put it in a backpack.. All your shit – so it’s together.. Get your shit together…!*  😉


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rocketman 6/18/2019 - 1:40 am

I really like your post I hope that is not a bad thing? I found it interesting. You just know how to make it enjoyable to read.

Bisban 6/18/2019 - 3:29 am

The indescribable, exceeding power of, God, extraction, torn and on the cross, the master of the secular, the exceeding power of man, experiment, the collusion and the conspiracy!! Come, and we’ll show you, what it, is; or, perhaps. Therefore, what may possibly come after, next; we wondered.
The King-Siddhartha, Version 1:3

shatterediris 6/18/2019 - 7:37 am

Honestly not the worst freestyle I’ve ever heard. it’s fairly nom ^_^

At least you didn’t go on a rant about how you hate woodwind instruments xD

shatterediris 6/18/2019 - 7:38 am

Heard…. You know what I mean

CuLt_Of_ThE_mOoN 6/18/2019 - 10:36 pm

*I do know what you mean* haha. Thank you guys for your kindness. I just figure getting out of my head a little helps. And by no means do I think it’s a bad thing that you like my post. I appreciate it. I was piss drunk when I wrote this. I just have to take all the bad shit – and be like an alchemist. Turn it into something. Anything. I mean – I don’t think I come off overly positive… I mean – compared to some people I might seem downright cheerful, and that’s not the case. This is just a survival mechanism I guess. I’d call it a coping mechanism, but.. I’ve plotted. I even have an exit strategy that I DON’T want to use. I would be messing up someone else’s life, and that would make me no better than the worst of the worst. So every once in a while, I get on here now.. Usually drunk.. I’m trying to deal with that too.. It’s not easy, and you all know that. Maybe that’s why I found my way here. I needed to connect with people that also understand. I appreciate your positivity. Trust me, I’m no wordsmith. lol. I drink and I write shit. 😉 There is hope for all of us. <3

shatterediris 6/19/2019 - 10:43 am

I very much so understand, writing helps me a lot too. But again it was an enjoyable read, keep writing. xD

CuLt_Of_ThE_mOoN 6/24/2019 - 9:20 pm

Thank you..! I actually had something rolling around in my mind earlier. I wish I was in the right headspace, but.. It’ll be there to mess with later (hopefully..) lol.. My short term memory is not great… Heh heh.. I’m glad I found this place. My objective wasn’t so much to entertain, but if I do – and it’s in a good way – then that makes me happy. (And let’s be honest here – there’s probably no tougher crowd.) I hope I can give other people hope. I’m not exactly doing everything right, but I’m still here. That’s a rough war to fight sometimes. And I just lost someone on Saturday too…. It was natural causes, but it still throws you off a little. I guess I’m in that “quiet place” for a minute. That’s how it goes tho – shit will fall into place creatively. Thanks again. I definitely appreciate the positivity..! <3

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