I’m done with life now. It’s never going to get better. I’m going to try to enjoy what I have left of the vacation with my family but after I get back to school in September, if all goes the way I’ve planned, I’ll be dead. I just can’t keep living, life will never be worth it, I will forever be a waste of space. I was thinking of just slitting my wrists after downing a bottle or two of Tylenol or a similar over-the-counter medicine. I’ve heard how painful and hard it is to overdose but at this point I’m real desperate.
I tried getting help by seeing the appropriate people in school but it obviously hasn’t been very effective. Another year of living in misery is just too much for me to go through again, for the sixteenth time. I hate to do this to my family, but they’ll get over it eventually, right?
So I guess bye.
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I don’t know what you’re going through, and I can’t tell you if things will ever get better. But I do urge you not to overdose on Tylenol (acetaminophen is the active ingredient). It is one of the most agonizing and painful ways to die, and will take multiple days. And if you can enjoy the rest of your vacation, maybe there are other things to enjoy?
The people can’t help you because they are operating in self-interest, all the people at the school act like they care just to maintain appearances, everyone who you’ve asked for help at the school can’t help you because they are just playing house – everything will always and forever be only selfish to them. You won’t be able to find help there.
I never tried to get help, I’m in love with my suicide and I don’t want any help because I chose it for myself. I have no one in my life so I think I am ripe to make my own decisions. I’m not committing because I am depressed or have any mental illness, I’m committing because freedom to choose and the fact that I am in love with suicide. I guess I’d rather be dead, than a brainwashed slave….??
Even if I changed my mind and chose to live they already ruined my body, my brain, and murdered who I used to be. Now I couldn’t even change my mind because of how severely they had abused me, they put me in a coma, they cracked my skull open, they stole 15,000$ from me. Right when they started doing these things, I was thinking maybe I would change my mind and choose life. No matter now though, I no longer have a choice, I have to die.