i want to save my child from a shitty life and just end it. i already know i’m shitty mom as i am bipolar as fuck and i can’t control being angry. i feel selfish as fuck leaving him in this cruel world but i just can’t do this anymore.
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Have you tried anything? I mean I get not being able to control it on your own I’m the same way. And honestly I’m not agreeing with what I’m about to suggest in fact I’m completely against it but it might work for you. Have you tried weed? I find unless someone pushes my buttons I’m overall fine and as long as you dont use too much it you don’t be stoned out of your mind to the point you can’t take care of them. It’s an interesting balancing act but from my understanding an easier balancing act compared to prescriptions.
I’m completely against it though because I basically ended up raising my little brother because of weed. Mom “I’ll be back in 5mins” she says every half an hour. Uh huh. But i suggest it because you seem to care and you want to stay for your child you just reached your limits.
honestly no, I’m against it because it took over my sisters life and I just hated it ever since.
yeah that can happen. especially if you get addicted to things easily. i dont think there is anything in it that can make you addicted (like nicotine) but you can get addicted to the peaceful feeling it causes which then becomes less peaceful. like i stated though i am completely against it if you have another life to take care of and you cant control your use. honestly though its about the only thing keeping me alive right now.
I don’t know exactly what to say bipolar or not your child needs you, you need to work on it don’t give up.