Have you tried anything? I mean I get not being able to control it on your own I’m the same way. And honestly I’m not agreeing with what I’m about to suggest in fact I’m completely against it but it might work for you. Have you tried weed? I find unless someone pushes my buttons I’m overall fine and as long as you dont use too much it you don’t be stoned out of your mind to the point you can’t take care of them. It’s an interesting balancing act but from my understanding an easier balancing act compared to prescriptions.
I’m completely against it though because I basically ended up raising my little brother because of weed. Mom “I’ll be back in 5mins” she says every half an hour. Uh huh. But i suggest it because you seem to care and you want to stay for your child you just reached your limits.