im tired…just make it stop

i really relate to this. sometimes i feel like, i win one battle, but the war is never-ending. you just need to find happiness out of the little things, out of yourself. so no one can dull your sunshine . this is advice someone gave me recently. it hasnt help me find a reason to live, but it has helped me stop feeling so much pain. before i sleep i think about everything im grateful for, like the people who care for me, or what i appreciate about myself. i try to be as kind as possible. i know our voice is brutal, it is critical, it slams us down. but u know, dont listen to your thoughts. the fact that you do little things like fake a smile to a cashier to be polite/make their day instead of just giving a blackface and not acknowledging them, i think that shows that u have a beautiful soul! u might think u arent making it yet, but you are getting there! little milestones! its hard to achieve, surely, but ur hardwork is definitely not in vain.. cheers, hope this helps