It was weird seeing things I wrote 4 years ago. In so many ways, I have come a long way. In so many ways, I have stayed the same.
So I was V.C.333 when I was here before. I have no idea what that name means, or where I got it from. I just went back to the time I was around here before and found the posts.
Things are not as bleak and hopeless as they seemed then. I was on a lot of medication then for fibromyalgia and neuropathy. I went to a new doctor, and she said that before she would see me, I had to get off all my meds. We made a 4 week plan, and I did it. After that, I felt so much better, that I just did some physical therapy and never went back on them again. (The first two weeks of detox were hell, but it got much better.)
I now do yoga and meditation.
I still have some pain, but not near as much as I did when I was on pain meds and nerve meds.
I still fantasize about death. That is why I am here again. That never really goes away, but I manage it. I just needed to talk to people who understand, so I am back.
I was in counseling and on meds for awhile. I felt better, so I got a part time job. Then I lost my medicaid. lmao
Now I am out of counseling and getting back off my meds.
Oh well, that’s life. Right? Up and down. Never up too long and never stable.