You know, it seems the “pit” some of us fall into is bottomless. I used to handle “rock bottom” pretty well, It was comforting somehow because it was at least a boundary that sort of meant things couldn’t get any worse. But my rock bottom is now a thick, slow kind of quicksand – you pull your head up to avoid suffocating and then you slowly sink back down, inch by miserable inch. If that’s not what Hell truly is then it really must defy the imagination.
I’m sorry you feel this way – I mean that. I’ve been intuitive and empathetic since I was a baby and I just feel the pain and suffering others have, even when experienced only through words.
The worst of all this? Trying to glean a small measure of comfort from knowing the option is there to end it, and then realizing I am too much of a bullshit fucking coward to do it. It sucks ass to have too little strength to be weak.
can’t use ways i prefer to calm myself down, because my family is here. it feels like i’ve been half drowning, getting pulled up for air only to be pushed back in for longer, and sink deeper
I always used to live for my bestfriend she was the world to me like my sister id do anything for her sadly we grew out of eachoder so now i feel the same.
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What a coincidence
So do I
You know, it seems the “pit” some of us fall into is bottomless. I used to handle “rock bottom” pretty well, It was comforting somehow because it was at least a boundary that sort of meant things couldn’t get any worse. But my rock bottom is now a thick, slow kind of quicksand – you pull your head up to avoid suffocating and then you slowly sink back down, inch by miserable inch. If that’s not what Hell truly is then it really must defy the imagination.
I’m sorry you feel this way – I mean that. I’ve been intuitive and empathetic since I was a baby and I just feel the pain and suffering others have, even when experienced only through words.
The worst of all this? Trying to glean a small measure of comfort from knowing the option is there to end it, and then realizing I am too much of a bullshit fucking coward to do it. It sucks ass to have too little strength to be weak.
I’m a walking corpse.
can’t use ways i prefer to calm myself down, because my family is here. it feels like i’ve been half drowning, getting pulled up for air only to be pushed back in for longer, and sink deeper
I always used to live for my bestfriend she was the world to me like my sister id do anything for her sadly we grew out of eachoder so now i feel the same.