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by dhansen

No specifics about method per rules.  Have my chosen chemical, anti-emetic, Xanex to relax, and pain meds now so ready to hit the road.  Not about the COVID pandemic – just isn’t much of a concern for me as I’ve been ready for a long time. After 30 years of hard work and being kicked to the curb from CEO to poverty plus multiple system atrophy (MSA) I just don’t have the drive to carry on and will end it in the coming days. It was a good run with lots of great travels to countries and interesting work, but time to go.  Well insured so the family is good, at least financially.  See ya later  …. headed to have a conversation with the creator.  Best wishes to all of you out there.


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mountaingoat 4/9/2020 - 10:52 pm

Sounds pretty bad. Neurological degeneration and poverty in middle age.

Just perhaps, you hang back for a bit and come to some deeper understanding of death before you go? Like read the Tibetan book of the dead and stuff.

dhansen 4/12/2020 - 9:55 am

Pondering this suggestion …..

Abnormal.Thoughts 4/10/2020 - 9:26 am

I hope you don’t go through with this but rather consider your family because money isn’t everything and insurance doesn’t like to pay on suicide usually.
I want to go too, I sat on the ledge with everything ready on three separate occasions, 2 in the last several weeks, but I always wonder if my last goodbye was good enough and if they are prepared to go on without me.

dhansen 4/12/2020 - 9:59 am

I can relate. I struggle trying to decide what’s worse … family financially, physically, and mentally struggling with me through a disease or just cutting loose so they can move on. It will be hard for them if I go forward with my plans and I’m trying to think of ways to ease this pain.

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