Free from this world and free from this life. My family remains the same pieces of shit that they are. I had a significant other that is broken from my pain. Now he causes my pain and he does it without blinking. It’s over I feel it now, and it sucks. I will be spending my time off in the hospital because yet again my elderly relative is sick and no one else will step up. I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. That world is crumbling on top of me and I can’t keep going on like this. I can’t try to salvage a relationship that has clearly ended. I can’t try and reason with toxic relatives. I can’t continue being 2 elderly relatives full time nurse. What about me? I’m always over looked I’m always putting others before myself and for what?? I want to chose me for once, I want to be free. And I shouldn’t feel like they only way that can happen is in death. I should be able to live and be free.