Wish everytime i took a step forward, i didnt get knocked back 3. Life has been kicking my a** for over 3 decades and i just cant seem to get it to back off and let me be happy or just let good things happen.
Even the shelter “therapist” told me today that normal people do have bad things happen to them but that I seem to get hit alot more than most normal people and that she feels bad for me. So even my downfall baffles people n stresses em out cuz they know theres no loop hole for me to escape these intense hits the universe attacks me with.
1 can only hope that when i do die, the least that ahole in the sky can do is let me rest in peace. My life is 1 emotionally exhausting trainwreck that hits me in every way possible, esp in the wallet. So help me if god created me just to see how much trauma n stress 1 person can actually handle. Or i was the scape goat for other peoples sins.
Idk. But fingers crossed someone sends somethin good my way so some of this weight on my shoulders can be lifted. Atleast for my kids sake. Cuz they really dont deserve to suffer along side me and they dont need to see their mom struggle tooth n nail 24/7.