I’ve been a lurker on this site for a while, and just now decided to post. I don’t know how many other “helpful” sites I’ve been to that tell me to think positively. Get out there and do your best. You just need to keep trying. I just want to scream SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP AND LISTEN TO ME! I don’t want your platitudes! I don’t want your fortune cookie nonsense! I want to be heard! I want to be seen! JUST LISTEN TO ME! I’m in pain. I’m lost. I’m confused. I feel hopeless. BECAUSE I AM HUMAN!!!! AND I FEEL PAIN!! I don’t want your pills. I don’t want your therapy. I don’t want my suffering to be a cash crop for ****** companies and the money-grubbing snobs who write the DSM. I want to be me, even if it’s depressed and a bit cynical. Even if I isolate. I’m a FLAWED human being. My mental illness can’t be erased. It is part of who I am. I’m here. Get used to it.
The sites that we’re all “supposed” to use (I’m sure many users on here know what I mean), just make me feel worse. Like, gee thanks. Now I feel like a total failure because I’m not thinking positively. Sorry that I’m not as good as you. But you can’t speak up when someone treats you like that on “helpful” sites. We’re all supposed to be mindless slaves. Take your pills and shut up. Don’t rock the boat. Don’t make people feel unconformable. Just be normal. Stop being a screw up. Stop being “problematic.” Get help. It’s absolutely crazy that we’re treated like garbage, while also being told to think positively. What? We’re all told we’re wrong and need help, but also there’s nothing wrong with us. Love yourself. Seriously. Like, I said THEY need to shut up and LISTEN TO US!!!