Life has become two dimensional, for lack of a better term. Its surreal and dreamlike. I definitely feel like I’m just going through the motions with no sense of purpose or direction. I recite this affirmation – ” I am guided in my every step by spirit who leads me to what I must know and do.” I’m pretty sure I believe it, maybe its because I’ve seen evidence of positive change in the past when I put my mind to creating it. But then again maybe its only me thats been responsible for it, by my actions. Regardless. Whatever. Well, its time to clock in and start the workday. Its the only thing keeping me going right now.
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Memories of my best years bring tears to me as I take my fifteen minute break. I wish a gas line would rupture and destroy this building. Yes, with everyone in it.
Same.
Our bodies have countless cells – all individual – some drastically different from others – and all guaranteed to die and be replaced throughout our lives. And yet all these individual cells have a greater purpose that collectively makes up a greater being. Something on a level of consciousness and scale that no single cell could ever comprehend.
So what if it’s all fractals? Maybe we are each again akin to cells and nerves for the universe and what we experience, good or bad or indifferent, is our actual purpose. We see and hear and touch for the greater whole and our contributions, no matter how individual they seem, maybe they actually are not that lonely after all.
I could do without the emotions we experience if all I’m needed for is sensory input – let the universe deal with the emotion if I’m just a conduit.