My childhood was nothing but trauma. My teen years were the same. I’m almost 21, and all I’ve had to look back on is wasted years, trauma, and grief. My disability prevented me from enjoying even the decent years.
The worst part is that I’m still experiencing trauma. I’m not even free from my abusive family.
I wonder if I ever will be free from here while I’m still alive.
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Getting away from your family and on your own, if possible, might be good first steps to change things around. You mentioned having a disability, so I don’t know what your situation is, but if that’s possible, taking steps to get out might be good for you. You’re still young at 21, and even if you feel the beginning of your life has been wasted, it doesn’t have to be the same way for whatever time remains. I won’t pretend to know all that you’re going through, though. Trauma is difficult, and there’s no timeline on navigating through it. It takes time. I wish you the very best, and hope that if you CAN make those changes that you find the ways to improve things for yourself.
Thank you, it’s hard but I’m doing my best. It’s up and down, and I’m struggling to hope, but I have to try.