Finally had the guts to ask out my crush!

Just do it!

Today i was going to meet my crush so i told myself today is the day, i’m gonna have to ask my crush out on a date and i did it! Sounds simple…yet there is something that complicates it. You see…she’s my social worker who visits me at home for work related businesses (as is part of her job) and i’m technically a client! I didn’t go out of my way to fancy having a crush on my social worker, but it just happened!

Suddenly a drop dead gorgeous, 5”9-5’10 foot (175-178 CM) tall, blonde hair. blue eyed girl, with (equally as important) a personality to match just swept me off my feet…and ever since i could not help myself really. First time meeting we hit it off straight away and i would really enjoy her company. Before i knew it i felt a strong chemistry…i flirt with her back and forth (compliments and cheeky looks) to the point of literally serenading her with a song i wrote on the guitar. The body language was giving me strong feelings…the way she would lean in and look at me…nervous body movements…biting on her necklace.

So today we were in my room and after 5 weeks of knowing each other i told her that i liked her. Before she had to leave i told her that i wanted to ask her something…*nervous pause* her: ”ohh tell me what do you want to ask me?” *body leans forward towards me*…*me becoming even more nervous and bursting out in laughter*. I quickly regained my focus and i was like: ”So i kinda like you…and i was wondering if you’d like to eat [blank] with me some time. Her response: I would not be allowed to go out with you, because of work related rules…” And i was like ”yeah the rules are an obstacle hu…they’re so strict in that regard” (trying to remain calm and collected in that moment lol) and followed up with ”my question is perhaps inappropriate but i like had to…” and she cut me off halfway saying that she likes me too! And that she’d like to make some self made nacho cheese with me at home, when she works an evening shift.

This confused me quite a bit, cause half way in the conversation i thought to myself ”f**k im going to spook her with my not so platonic question”…but here she was suggesting home made nachos as an option. Why i thought to myself? Perhaps that can lend the excuse that she’d be meeting me under work time and that it’s ”work related”, rather than her co-workers finding out i’ve been meeting her outside of work? I don’t know, i’m so confused lol.

It feels like the chapter that is my crush, is NOT closed off yet…cause why would she suggest meeting up like that even when she is not obligated to do so for work. Did i get a ”soft rejection” maybe? I don’t know…i’m so confused i’d like to hear anyone’s thought on this!