I hate my mother

Hey, I just want to post this because I really hate my life and hate my mom so much. you have no idea what I’m going through, it might be not as bad as some other cases but I hope it can change because when I’m writing this is still going on. I have Asian parents, and Asian parents tend to be strict, and I probably land on the most terrible parent.
The story begins like this, (disclaimer I didn’t put my name nor how old am I because I don’t want anyone to get in trouble, and I was in a rush writing this)
so I came to America in 2018 around late July, I attended my school, and I love it, the teacher is nice, they actually teach logic instead of Chinese, teachers who just teach how to solve the problem, also I was used to being beaten up because it was normally in China. So After a while, the covid pandemic struck, and that’s when my grade starts to fall, My grades starts to fall like a rock going downhill and it was hard to climb back on, and if your wondering how did my grade starts to fall, well you see during the pandemic, my school gives out Chromebook, for students to attend online class, and I was a silly boy and choose to not pay attention in class and play games, (Future me be like: HOLY **** your stupid if you’re studying rn this mess won’t start) well that caused my grade start to fall
(btw is around the start of 2020). So I swear to myself that I will get a good grade when next year of school starts, which yeah I did pretty well on my classes, and got mostly A+ and a 3.8 GPA ;), AND MY MOM DIDN”T EVEN SAY ANYTHINGS, she’s like you got 3.8, I expected you to get a 4.0, and that’s not even that bad part, next semester started, and my starts to fall again, you want know why, BECAUSE I GOT CLOSE CONTACTED, basically, if you get close contracted with someone that have covid, you will have to stay in ur hour for a whole week then if you have no fever and tested ur fine, so I did that and I’m fine. BUT I missed a whole week of homework, and sadly that’s the week of my most important project, it was due and if I don’t finish it half of my grade will be GONE, and that teacher is called Ms.Hill, she is the worst teacher anyone could have, she is a history teacher and everyone in schools hates her. She barely teach anything, normally she just tell us what page to read and which page we need to do, and then she just go to her desk watch her random video or calling someone, or just step outside AND VISITE THE OTHER TEACHER”S CLASSSS, normally she’s not even in her class 90% percent of the times, you might say her class must be an easy peasy class but NO, she is a dumb *****, and have favorite, like one time, I’m around 1m late and she didn’t even start the class yet and she asked me to stand outside, well I’m late because I have a cooking class and it takes forever, and even the principal knows that is not our fault, sooo, Ms.hill got mad and asked me to stay outside, which I did, then one of her favorite students (a girl) was also in my cooking class, was also late to her class, and ms hill didn’t even say anything and decided my pununishment is to LOWER MY GRADE WTF. I hate her, half of my homework was lost according to her, only a few ones (around 4) that she collected, well she didn’t lose the paper if is her favorite student collected or is presentational, and each of her assignment, takes a bunch of points, she always, like to bully me and troll me and mark my grade down, many times, she pick on me and that just makes my day bad, and when my day is really bad I sometimes, can’t focus on other class, and that caused my history class at very bad grade, and my other class getting bad grade too. Not just that my one week of missing homework impacted my grade a lot, (it was mostly A, then after the week is D and Cs). My mom got really mad and starts to yell at me emotionally bully me, not letting me play games or anything, and starts yelling at me calling me names like dumb as, dumb *****, calling stuff like my whole family is a ***** and stuff, she even hit me a lot(don’t tell anyone I swear to god pls) that was about 2022, around February, so I promise her that I will try my best getting my grade up, but she didn’t believe me, she just starts to always pick on me shouting at me and hits me always. (I can’t fight back because you know why) then we met immragtion, translating probably and a lot of probablom, and I always help my mom and stand on her sides, but she never even seems grateful about it, I ALWAYS TRY TO LOVE HER, but she never loves back, around a few weeks ago, and today May 20, was a disaster, the following few months I mostly completely every possible homework but it was no use because we basiclly finish most stuff in school, so I don’t get as much homework, as before, so my grade don’t gain back fast, so this week may 15-20, it was a terrable week, my mom starts getting mad at me because my grade was still down, (it was f back then, now is mostly B and some C) she’s mad and today, I was organizing my stuff and she got ANGRY, she starts to curse and beating me up, and I only can defend my self, she say I WAS ALWAYS A UNGRATEFUL BRAT, AND ALWAYS ANNOYING HER like WAHTTT, and she keep beating me up, and keep saying how useless i am and how i just mess around with my brother, (her favorite) and she starts to shout at me, she even bought a plan ticket going back to china saying she can’t take it, at the moment I feel so MAD and I just want to kill myself, I was always being tortured, being annoyed my brother, by my friend, by school bullies, by EVEN MY OWN MOTHERS, she said she can’t take it anymore, and even called the cps to send me to another family put me on adoptional, and she say my other option is to join my father in china, (which is another terrable man, who like to beat me up) I really have no choice and I’m going back in a copul of days, the reason I don”t want to leave is because I have a life, friends, teacher, and even a crush, yes i admit and long crush, around 4 semester, this whole frickin year man, and I was crying my eyes out, and now is 7:43pm and she don’t even cares, I really hates her and want to punch her and she is there reapting annoying me and say how bad I’m a child, she keep saying that she got so unlucky, ok fine I agree with you that MY MOTHER EXPERICENCE ALOT AND SHE HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF BOTH OF ME AND MY BROTHER, AND IS TIRDING, I KNOW. But lots of the time, she just keeps put every higher than what I can do, put the exceptional higher than what I can do, and always give me negives hope on everything, I tried and sometimes I play on my phone in my bed is BECAUSE I”M A KID, I WANT TO PLAY, JESUS, I WANT TO PLAY VIDEO GAMES, is NORMAL for preteen like me OML, she really don’t understand, everyday is just a repeat , I can’t have anytime off, I just wake up at 6:40 prepare, prestudey, eat food, and go to school, and come back, spend another 4-6 hour doing homework my mom want me to do, and I have littary no time life having a little bit of fun, and she is just here thinking that i was the stupid one, ok fine even if i”m stopid I spend everyday trying to impress, you trying to make you happy, but all you do is just ignore whatever I did good, like a A on a test, she be like OMG BACK IN MY DAYS I COULD GET A A+ USING MY PINKY, like OK I”M SORRY I DID TERRALBE ON MY TEST EVEN IF I GOT A A, and when I get a F, is just get beaten up, so let just say I have about 8-9 days left I probably will confess that I have a crush, and maybe spend my last few days in this countries unless my mom change my mind, probably not gonna happen. I am literary dying in tears writing them to hope you won’t might about the grammar and stuff and hope you understand my story