I hate others and myself because I’m very weak and stupid and I haven’t been able to achieve my dreams or any success in life. I hate this shit. Stuck and suck at this. I don’t know how to live a good life, a normal life. I wish things would change or end because I can’t take it much longer. I wish someone knew and told me how and what to do in life.
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How and what to do in life: quit your souless job. Move to Scotland. Open a bakery.
If that sounds like it could help.
found this site through your post here, thank you and the best.
Well for the longest time I held to the illusion that one day I’ll “make it” and get rich. I had the smarts but unfortunately nothing I did worked out in my favor, but I came close a number of times.
Unfortunately I sacrificed the present in the hope that one day I’ll finally succeed at my goal, rather than living within the means I had available to me.
Now I have to face the ugly reality that I’ve accomplished nothing, apart from getting my degree and current job. And although I should be buying my own place soon, it won’t be the kind of place I envisioned for myself.
I have no partner, I’ve gained weight, lost my youth and I’m heading into old age. There’s really no reason for me to keep living.
People (relatives) talk shit about me behind my back, though I’ve helped everyone in my life in some way. But then I don’t really care about them anyways…there was a time they mattered but that’s over.
The only people that truly matter to me now are my mother and my sister and a few friends-but I wouldn’t stick around for friendship.
It was largely a wasted life. I had some good times but they were rare. Most of my life just sucked. I hate my job, though it pays the bills and I’m well below my employment level for my education.
If you’re younger but don’t have an education, the good thing is that at least society still offers blue collar workers to get well paying jobs. As I’m 50 now I don’t really care to change careers and get more education/training. I’m just going to keep on going till I’m about 60 and then take another stock of my situation.
If I’m no better off than I am today then I’ll quit living at that point. Some lives are like bad sitcoms and you can sit through a bunch of episodes until you realize it doesn’t get any better than this.
I guess if I meet a great girl, that could change my perspective but I doubt it’ll happen. I had many chances when I was younger and I wasted those opportunities. So I’m basically SOL.
To end on a positive note, after I move and my life is more settled I plan to hit the gym again and get back in shape and I’ll give it an honest effort to find my partner.
I’ll probably end up settling for someone who’s adequate but below my true level…however if I’m no happier then the decision (to end things) will become that much more certain.