What’s wrong with me lately?
I understand that my brain is wired differently and all that, but my god am I really such a mess in my own damn head?
I finished work and started to dread my 2nd job, I need more money, trying to get promoted, need money, drove home frustrated, need money…
Fucking stressed and angry and upset. Fuck.
I need to stop. Just calm down and stop.
I want to bang my head against a wall or a desk.
I need help financially, have to do something to fix myself.
Like I even know how to fix my own mess. Ugh.
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is there help available that you aren’t using? Food stamps suck for the ego, but they help the food budget alot. Same goes for medicare, and meds help too for that matter.
sounds like a house of sand to me, one you’re barely holding up. That’s no shame on you, the modern job market does this to most of us. You don’t owe them anything, landlords, bosses, debt collectors, they’re all some kind of asshole capitalizing on your hard work.
Find some rest bud. It’s okay, and sometimes necessary to try and get some distance, and figure out what you need, and how to get it.
Maybe you aren’t the mess. It feels messy, when life is screwed up, but it’s just possible that there are external causes, and that you’re doing the best you can. I’m rooting for you, regardless of whence the mess lies.