How does one live a happy life when one is in constant pain? Yes from the car accident but also from the greedy dentist that fucked up my teeth/gums/mouth bc he wanted to make a few extra thousand dollars, and well as the many shit ass incompetent drs that have ruined my health. I would have been so much healthier had I not gone to drs. All they did was fuck me up more, one dr after another after another- ALL in different fields/specialties. The foot specialist fucked up my foot so now I can’t walk as well. The acupuncturists also fucked up my foot and everything below the knee.
The chiropractor fucked up my foot as well by fucking up my spine. To this day I do not have full/normal sensation in two of my toes bc of him, as well as the whole lower leg/foot, not just isolated to the foot.
Oh yeah, there’s the idiot drs who gave me antibiotics and ruined my gut for decades when I shouldn’t even been given any. Did I have an infection? Did they even TEST to see if I had an infection? NO. They just told me to take it, and at the time, I trusted drs.
I had no reason to NOT believe in drs at the time. Now I know better. It’s all a fucking racket. They’re either incompetent as fuck, or out to squeeze money out of you, which usually means shitty ass treatments that make you WORSE.
The greedy ass dentist ruined my mouth- it’s all destroyed- bc he’s a slimy greedy fucking asshole. No it’s not just my sentiment. I called the dental board after I had suspicions and they told me he was under investigation. He was the worse bc he was intentional vs the other drs who were just incompetent. They all damaged me regardless, but HE was a greedy son of a *****. Christian my ass. It’s always the most shitty corrupt ppl who spout religion.
The car accident was bad enough, but it’s going to all those drs that fucked me up more. And no, there’s no way to tell they were bad. I had researched in advance, they all had great ratings and reviews, etc.
If you get injured, you’re forced to see drs, to get help. But every dr I saw for 1 problem, I come out having 2 new problems, then I’d have to see more drs to fix what that dr did. And on and on it went.
THIS is why I AM SO FUCKING MAD. This didn’t need to happen. My life didn’t need to be ruined. The asshole that ran me over was bad enough, the cop that screwed me over was bad enough, but nooooo, the universe decided that every dr I go to would fuck me over MORE.
So now I’m fucked up from head to toe. Now I regret not ending it sooner, bc this is unnecessary torture. It was only the hope that “things would be better” that stopped me from offing myself.
In economics there’s a term called sunk cost. I had “sunk pain” and sunk abuse. I figured if I had suffered all that pain- physical, emotional, mental pain- from childhood, from abuse, from neglect, from poverty, from the fucking car accident, from the shit ass drs- that I can’t just fucking DIE from decades of living a shit life. I thought SOMETHING ought to come from it- that I should at least accomplish SOMETHING so that makes all that suffering mean something and worth something. Bc otherwise, it’s just a fucking waste.
Goddamn, there’s the pain again. It never goes away. Earlier it was head pain (24/7 pain). Now it’s my back/hip (24/7 pain). There are moments when I get a massage or self massage that it hurts less bad (after hurting through the massage bc it’s bloody painful), but after I usually feel a little better. But 1- it never lasts and 2- who the fuck has the money to pay for a massage therapist, especially a sports massage therapist, EVERY DAY? bc that’s how often i need it.
OFC that shit isn’t covered by insurance. Only the stupid shit that DOESN’T work are covered. Every single thing that I need that helps is not covered (massages, vitamin IVs/shots, etc). And everything that fucks me up is covered by insurance. All those shitty ass drs who fucked me up was through insurance.
No I can’t sue- this was years ago and it’s incredibly hard to nail any fucking dr. Just like how cops are untouchable, same goes for drs. You basically just get fucked.
Anyhow, FML.
I’m in 24/7 constant pain. I WOULD take feel good pain meds except for the fact that it would just make me a drug addict like every other chronically ill person taking pain meds. The pain meds that work turn you into an addict, and the pain meds that don’t work don’t get you addicted, but they don’t work…
Anyhow, I don’t take shit for my pain, which explains a good 50-80% of my anger and anguish at life.
Hell, idk what % is caused by what these days.
What % of my anger and mental anguish is due to childhood poverty, abuse and neglect?
What % of my anger and mental anguish is due to the car accident and health issues from that?
What % of my anger and mental anguish is due to all the DRS that FUCKED ME UP MORE after the car accident?
What % is my anger and mental anguish is due to systemic suppression and oppression of the peasant class by the proletariat?
What % of my anger and mental anguish is due to political and economic corruption by the wealthy?
What % of my anger and mental anguish is due to systemic classism, racism, and misogyny I’ve experienced every day since childhood?
There is just so much ONE person can fucking take.
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I was saved last second from being ruined by a dentist. I had my RCT done and needed to have cap fitted. Dentist took measurements and created cap but it wasn’t fitting even after many tries and modifications to cap and lower tooth (on which RCT was done). So then what he did is he took his machine and went on to modify my UPPER TOOTH. The one that was perfectly alright. Luckily I was in right senses and stopped him right there. I should’ve fought with him but just didn’t feel like wasting my energy on him.
My other known people also always had issues with dentists. Dentists seem to think they can do anything with teeth, modify them in any way since these are just dead calcium. Most of their work looks less like doctor’s and more like carpenter’s.
i didn’t even need a root canal done. my filling came loose and fell out, and all i needed was have the filling replaced. the greedy corrupt POS forced me to have a root canal. didn’t even give me time to think about it. brought me to the other dentist to have it removed right away.