I just can’t. I’m battered and broken. IDK what to do. Every day is hell. Torture.
I can’t take much more of this. NOTHING in my life ever gets better, only worse. And lately I’ve been dealing with toenail fungus that’s spread ALL over my body. FML. Been dealing with the toe for 4 years and the skin spread for the last 2 years. I can’t fucking get rid of it! And no, going to a dr to get some prescription cream does not fucking work.
And that’s in addition to the daily torment the shit fucker neighbor is doling out. I can’t stand the fucker. But I’m also afraid that whoever new moves in might be even worse. Bc that’s how it’s gone in the past. A shitty neighbor moves out, only to have an even shittier and noisier neighbor move in. Idk what to do. I can’t take this shit.
All I fucking want is to live in a NICE, QUIET, luxurious apt/house. And to finally be at peace. I haven’t had good neighbors for literally 15 fucking years!! Most of it is due to having to live in thin-walled apts where everyone is on top of each other. When I moved to a better apt building, the nice neighbor below moved out 2mo after I moved in, and each person/people who moved in after got shittier and shittier and shittier. Literally one worse than the other.
Then when I finally moved into a house where there was some feet of separation and separate walls, the asshole neighbor to the left had 3 fucking screaming brats and 2 barking dogs all day and all night and the asshole neighbor to the left didn’t like the noise so he started shouting all day and all night to piss them off. And I’m in the fucking middle having to hear BOTH of their fucking asses.
What kind of fucking shit ass luck do I have? THIS is why I’m depressed af. No matter where I am, no matter where I move to, this shit ass dark cloud follows me and says fuck you, you can’t escape your shit luck!
Literally for the last 15 years straight, I have not had good neighbors. Actually there were a couple of bad neighbors before that, but if we’re talking back to back shit neighbors, it’s been 15 years straight. I guess 20 years if you count non-consequetive.
Anyhow, I’m poor, in bad health, have shit neighbors, have NO help, and I’m all alone.
I CAN’T BATTLE THE FUCKING UNIVERSE!
All I get is this shit thrown at me. My whole life. Like WHEN will something GOOD actually happen to me? I’m middle-aged now. I’m still waiting…
I don’t have hope things will change. Why would it suddenly get better, after it being shit for 30, 40, 50 years? Things don’t magically happen like they do in fairy tales. I’m in a fucking horror movie.
All I get is shit, shit, and worse shit.
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As far as the fungus goes, I had it also…bad. Got exposed to it from an old building and renovations. Got under my skin, for a time I smelled like an old carpet. Several years of oral terbinafine 250 cured it under close supervision of doc, it’s a nasty med, gotta be careful of side affects. Neighbors can suck too. Not much to do about that I have had a few bads one’s. Just moved to this place a year ago and finally some luck with decent quiet ones. Yea, also battered and bruised, I don’t see it getting better. Just on auto right now, I suppose it’s a bit of luck with no major active battles at this time, but plenty recently behind me for many years and enough of them that i couldn’t handle another.. so tired. Guess I should be content with that – no active major battle… sad it seems that is the best I can hope for. Sorry wish I could offer something positive.
-you took oral terbinafine 250 every single day for several years?
-what kind of side effects?
-did you do or take anything else in addition to that?
-It was UNDER your skin and not ON your skin? How did you know it was under your skin? Did you have black spots on/under your skin?
dealing with the fungus is what’s killing me rn.
I started with OTC anti-fungal meds. They didn’t do shit.
then started using natural stuff- like tea tree oil and vinegar and epsom salt foot baths. for a time, it was being held in check (didn’t get rid of it but had prevented it from spreading)
BUT- I moved several times in the last 10 mo and bc of that it spread. and now it’s all over my skin- my foot, legs, hands, arms, and face.
i can’t get rid of it. the natural stuff only seems to be half effective. I don’t want to go to a dr and get prescription anti-fungal meds bc they ALL are nasty. AND some of those don’t work. So I’m wary of going to the dr. ALSO- that is how it fucking spread in the first place!! I went to the drs office, saw an RN/PA, and she gave me this prescription thing for the toenail fungus. I used it ONCE, left it on for 2d, and it SPREAD. It first spread to the whole toenail, and then to my foot. And once it got on my foot/skin, that’s when the whole trouble began. When it was just on my toenail, it stayed on the toenail.
Anyhow, going to the dr was the REASON it SPREAD in the first place. I already don’t trust drs (due to many reasons) but IDK what to do. My health is already bad and I don’t want to take shitty horrible toxic drugs. AND they’re not guaranteed to work either. AND it takes years like you said. It’s so disheartening. Like ok, if it was toxic and I take it for 3 weeks, that’s one thing. But YEARS?
IDK what else to do. The natural remedies aren’t working. ALL they do is help combat it SOME. It doesn’t kill it all. NOTHING kills it all, short of the toxic shit you took.
–>how bad was your fungus? how much did it spread? was it on every part of your skin? could you see it? or mostly felt? was the skin itchy/scaly?
would like to know how bad yours was, the symptoms, and how long u took the oral terbinafine 250?
I keep trying to reply and it’s not saving
“What is the success rate of terbinafine 250 mg?
The FDA-labeled dosage of terbinafine is 250 mg per day given continuously for 12 weeks to treat toenail infections and for six weeks to treat fingernail infections. Studies have shown that the regimen for toenails results in a mycologic cure rate of 71 to 82 percent and a clinical cure rate of 60 to 70 percent.”
JFC, success rate is only 60-70%, which mean IRL outside the lab studies is like 50%.
I also used the doc strength terbinafine cream. I used different things over time to finally be 100 % cleared with lots of monitoring and checks…see other post had a really hard time replying with the info
One more thing, the asorbine Jr has been around for a 100 years, farmers use to use it LoL they used to also market for fungal, but not anymore, now it’s sold as help for muscle, but its the same stuff it smells but it works…of course there are different fungal infection so gotta try different things to beat it and even when you get the right stuff it takes time
I got showered with the shit during a renovation. Had it on my skin and yes it grew under my skin. Thats why it took so long to cure. I was “lucky” finally able to get rid of it, but I started smelling like an old carpet… Need liver check regularly, this med can hurt the liver and need to take breaks from the meds if needed longer than the initial recommended time. Stay away from alcohol and grapefruit. Check for interaction with other meds. I also used from the doc terbinafine cream and tea tree oil on my nails. DHS tar shampoo on my scalp and on my back…. You can buy the DHS from the pharm, but they usually have to order it…get the black label – not the white. For fungi don’t use anything with steriods, steriods will only make it worse. The topicals helped, but without the oral meds I would still be living with the crap. I also used apple cider vinegar and tumeric orally as natural remedies for the infection when not taking the meds because took a lot of breaks from the meds as yes, it’s a nasty.
Let me try this… took breaks from the terbinafine after initial recommendation and used again . When not taking terbinafine I took apple cider vinegar and tumeric as a natural remedy. Also DHS tar shampoo for scalp and back… get the black label not white. Asorbine Jr is also good topicals for skin and nails. Stay away from anything with s t er oids as it will make it worse
Grr, came back to try again, in between the terbinafine I said I took apple cider vinegar that was I took a table spoon at breakfast and dinner and mixed turmeric with oatmeal in the am. I had it really bad, sounds like you do too it’s a tough battle this one I won, but the site really pushed back and trying to give the info, had to change wording a lot
how many years did it take?
it’s horrific. it’s the #1 source of my depression now. it feels so defeating. no matter what i throw at it, at best it recedes it a little, never killing all of it. and if you slack off for ONE day (which is hard to keep up when you have depression), it spreads so fast.
it’s spread to my FACE so it’s absolutely fucking horrific
i really can’t take that terbinafine, so idk what to do. my liver is already wrecked from chronic illness.
I AM ITCHING LIKE CRAZY!!!
And I cannot scratch bc then it’ll spread more :'(
Thanks. I need to find a natural dr I can afford, and find out what natural stuff I can use. Idk if I can fight it off without terbinafine, but a brief search into it and there’s all these toxic warnings. i’m not a fan of ANY drugs, let alone one they actually admit to being toxic. I already have health/autoimmune issues, so I think taking that will make me even sicker. But idk what natural thing to take to get it all killed -_-
the main problem with fungus is that you do all you can, and it kills maybe 80% at best, and the 20% just grows and grows.