Wish to fucking hell I could re-wind the last few years of my life. I would do it all so differently and not make the choices I’ve made (mainly of moving from x bad place to y shitty place to z even shittier place). And I moved bc of “free rent.” That’s how this shit started. Sigh.
I’m now stuck in a shit situation. I get in a worse position every fucking time I move, bc every place has been worse than the last.
And NO, I CANNOT stay here. It’s fucking awful. I need to leave but have nowhere to go. FML.
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eternaldarkness, even though it seems like each day a little bit of my life gets better (current status at the bottom of the pit), yes I fully understand the desire to hit the rewind button. However the difference for me I want to go back to two years old when I was rushed to the emergency room with less than fifteen minutes left to breathe, hoping instead that the ambulance didn’t make it in time.
well i want to go further back than the last few years too. to age 7. do everything different, knowing what i know now. though, i suppose, if we did have a rewind button, we wouldn’t know what we know now and would probably have made the same fucking choices.
and it’s not like i made bad choices on to do drugs or alcohol or do bad in school, etc. i had made all the “right” choices which somehow all happened to be “bad” choices. the last few years tho, my decision making process has been less than ideal, so that’s on me.