To be serious, I would’ve ran away from home while I was innocent and was still curious and passionate about what I sought. I had this thought and never acted on it.
same. had wanted to run away when i was 7-9. maybe my life would’ve been better had i acted out, would’ve probably been found in a day, but there would’ve been intervention. bc i said nothing to no one (this was before the age of the internet so it wasn’t so easy back then), i suffered daily abuse at home. i was scared to run away bc i thought i could be raped or stabbed, which i didn’t want. but if i had tried and my relatives had found out, they would have helped- at least back then. they don’t give a shit about me now, but as a 7yo, they would’ve helped.
I’m about to say something extremely messed up but whatever… I would “fix” the mistake that is my life by unplugging the life support machine of myself as a premie.
I took a knife into my college classroom, with the intention to create a situation where the police would have to shoot me dead. It was inside of a backpack. I was trying to force myself to act, but was nervous. A girl in my class noticed I was nervous and asked me if I was okay. I decided to be honest. She talked me into not doing anything. I picked up my backpack, left the building, and took an Uber home. Little did I know that the same girl texted school administrators. By the time the school was on lockdown, I wasnt even in the building anymore.
I got arrested at my apartment. Did time in prison for Making terroristic threats, even though the knife never left my backpack, and that girl was the only one I told about it.
I wish I never would’ve done that. I’m a felon now, and life is a lot harder than it used to be. I’m unable to chase some of my dreams because of these barriers. But I’m doing alright.
I did it because I hated myself. I’m doing better.
holy shit, that sucks. how can they charge you as a felon if you haven’t done anything? though…in light of school shootings, i can kinda see how they thought you might’ve wanted to slash ppl in school.
so the police came and you admitted it? they wouldn’t have a case if you denied you ever had the conversation with the girl or denied you actually had a knife in your backpack.
wow, how long in prison did u do?
wow, in a sense, it’s that girls’ fault bc she reported you. but then again, if she hadn’t and you turned out to be a mass shooter, i guess i can see why she did it. i’m sure she didn’t want you to go to jail and be a felon. she felt responsibility to report you. yeah that’s hard.
that’s the thing- sui.cide is a hell of a thing for ppl to report. i resent ppl who do that shit. bc that shit isn’t harming anyone except the person who no longer wants to live.
but bringing a weapon to school in light of all the mass shootings…i can kinda see why she reported you, but i don’t think you should have been sent to prison. especially since you hadn’t done anything and your intent was suicide, not homicide.
i remember back in the day, ppl would bring bullets, knives, all kinds of stuff in to school. nobody did shit. they installed metal detectors in schools, but if found, you just got suspended at the most. but that was before mass school shootings became a thing.
I was taken from my apartment and brought to a hospital, where they admitted me into their psych unit. While I was there, some detectives came to interrogate me in a private room.
I lied and told the police I was going to kill everybody, and never mentioned anything about suicide (although they took my journals, where I talked about it). Truly, I hated myself. Dumbest thing I ever did. Once I was released from the psych ward, they put me in handcuffs and took me to jail.
I spent 8 months in jail and was sentenced to 28 months -20 years in prison. I was taken to forensic psychiatry before I was sentenced, but they determined I wasnt sick enough to go there instead of prison. I did 16 months in prison, and then 3 months in a boot camp program I qualified for since it was my first offense. Completed the boot camp and was let out on parole.
Prison really sucks.
I don’t blame the girl. I blame myself. My own self-hate and stupidity. My own selfishness.
omg why did u tell them you wanted to kill everyone instead of suicide? DID you want to kill everyone? it wasn’t solely a suicide attempt when u brought the knife to school?
ok, bc you said that, it makes sense they put u in jail. bc they felt like you were gonna take out a bunch of students.
so you got 8mo in jail + 16mo in prison + 3mo bootcamp? so like 24-27mo?
eternaldarkness7/16/2023 - 1:13 am
but why lie and say u wanted to kill everyone? you knew that it would land u in more trouble if you said you were homicidal and not merely suicidal
eternaldarkness7/16/2023 - 1:15 am
how old were u at the time? this was at a HS or College?
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not go looking while neighbour was ranting.
To be serious, I would’ve ran away from home while I was innocent and was still curious and passionate about what I sought. I had this thought and never acted on it.
same. had wanted to run away when i was 7-9. maybe my life would’ve been better had i acted out, would’ve probably been found in a day, but there would’ve been intervention. bc i said nothing to no one (this was before the age of the internet so it wasn’t so easy back then), i suffered daily abuse at home. i was scared to run away bc i thought i could be raped or stabbed, which i didn’t want. but if i had tried and my relatives had found out, they would have helped- at least back then. they don’t give a shit about me now, but as a 7yo, they would’ve helped.
I’m about to say something extremely messed up but whatever… I would “fix” the mistake that is my life by unplugging the life support machine of myself as a premie.
I took a knife into my college classroom, with the intention to create a situation where the police would have to shoot me dead. It was inside of a backpack. I was trying to force myself to act, but was nervous. A girl in my class noticed I was nervous and asked me if I was okay. I decided to be honest. She talked me into not doing anything. I picked up my backpack, left the building, and took an Uber home. Little did I know that the same girl texted school administrators. By the time the school was on lockdown, I wasnt even in the building anymore.
I got arrested at my apartment. Did time in prison for Making terroristic threats, even though the knife never left my backpack, and that girl was the only one I told about it.
I wish I never would’ve done that. I’m a felon now, and life is a lot harder than it used to be. I’m unable to chase some of my dreams because of these barriers. But I’m doing alright.
I did it because I hated myself. I’m doing better.
holy shit, that sucks. how can they charge you as a felon if you haven’t done anything? though…in light of school shootings, i can kinda see how they thought you might’ve wanted to slash ppl in school.
so the police came and you admitted it? they wouldn’t have a case if you denied you ever had the conversation with the girl or denied you actually had a knife in your backpack.
wow, how long in prison did u do?
wow, in a sense, it’s that girls’ fault bc she reported you. but then again, if she hadn’t and you turned out to be a mass shooter, i guess i can see why she did it. i’m sure she didn’t want you to go to jail and be a felon. she felt responsibility to report you. yeah that’s hard.
that’s the thing- sui.cide is a hell of a thing for ppl to report. i resent ppl who do that shit. bc that shit isn’t harming anyone except the person who no longer wants to live.
but bringing a weapon to school in light of all the mass shootings…i can kinda see why she reported you, but i don’t think you should have been sent to prison. especially since you hadn’t done anything and your intent was suicide, not homicide.
i remember back in the day, ppl would bring bullets, knives, all kinds of stuff in to school. nobody did shit. they installed metal detectors in schools, but if found, you just got suspended at the most. but that was before mass school shootings became a thing.
I was taken from my apartment and brought to a hospital, where they admitted me into their psych unit. While I was there, some detectives came to interrogate me in a private room.
I lied and told the police I was going to kill everybody, and never mentioned anything about suicide (although they took my journals, where I talked about it). Truly, I hated myself. Dumbest thing I ever did. Once I was released from the psych ward, they put me in handcuffs and took me to jail.
I spent 8 months in jail and was sentenced to 28 months -20 years in prison. I was taken to forensic psychiatry before I was sentenced, but they determined I wasnt sick enough to go there instead of prison. I did 16 months in prison, and then 3 months in a boot camp program I qualified for since it was my first offense. Completed the boot camp and was let out on parole.
Prison really sucks.
I don’t blame the girl. I blame myself. My own self-hate and stupidity. My own selfishness.
omg why did u tell them you wanted to kill everyone instead of suicide? DID you want to kill everyone? it wasn’t solely a suicide attempt when u brought the knife to school?
ok, bc you said that, it makes sense they put u in jail. bc they felt like you were gonna take out a bunch of students.
so you got 8mo in jail + 16mo in prison + 3mo bootcamp? so like 24-27mo?
but why lie and say u wanted to kill everyone? you knew that it would land u in more trouble if you said you were homicidal and not merely suicidal
how old were u at the time? this was at a HS or College?