My life is so broken.
*I* am so broken.
I want to leave this clusterfuck of a situation.
Do I want to end my life?
Not necessarily.
Do I want, no, NEED a better life?
I sure fucking do.
Many of us here who are suicidal don’t necessarily want to die die, but want to escape their shitty life. IF we had better lives, better situations, better health, more money, less problems, would we still be so fucked up we’d want to die? Maybe some still would. But I would be much happier/better off if I had a better life. I wouldn’t think about death every day if my life were better.
Anyhow, my life as it is, is so fucking awful.
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exactly this; I’ve been trying to find a way to say it clearer that the lifestyle I’ve got makes me suicidal
like the symptoms wouldn’t persist if the CAUSE was dealt with…
trapped, trapped, most people are trapped.
the difference between while we lament it, they celebrate it.
wait- who celebrates what?
when I talk about how people are stuck, how unpleasant their lives are, there’s a certain type of establishment personality, the kind that says the quiet part out loud; it’s on purpose. I was on this again last night, am I tired enough to accept help from the church
and the answer was no, no I’m not
no you’re not what? i’m confused…
you mean to say while we lament our shit lives, the rich celebrate it? and that’s it’s done of purpose? if that’s what you’re saying then yes, that’s exactly what is going on.
the rich rig the system, screwing the masses, and the masses are being told (by the establishment ruling class, via msm, “research” they paid for and tell what to publish) that it’s “all in our heads” and that “we just need to take this pill and that pill” for the rest of our lives to enrich big phar.ma they are in control of.
That’s the lie being perpetrated by Big Phar.ma- that the problem lies in our heads, that it’s US, that it’s “chemical imbalance” (which has been disproven btw). They push that lie bc that’s the only way to get millions of people hooked on drugs, pop a pill every day for the rest of our lives.
No, it’s bc we have shit lives and we are trapped. OFC we’re going to be suicidal if we lack money, have shitty bosses or coworkers, live in a shitty neighborhood or barely eeking by after rent, food, etc.
No one tells a paraplegic, “you’re depressed bc of a chemical imbalance.”
But somehow, no one sees the obvious- that people are unhappy bc we have shit lives.
” No one tells a paraplegic, “you’re depressed bc of a chemical imbalance.” ”
Fuck yeah exactly. Nobody tells a parplegic “Eat healthy, exercise, try yoga! It’s all in your head!”
And this is why I despise all the suicide prevention industries, gobs of money being thrown around to put up billboards and bumper stickers that parrot the mush like “Help is available!” and “Reach out!” and “Call this worthless phone number, if it doesn’t fix you then it’s your fault bc we tried!”
The truth is nobody wants to put the effort into actually fixing people’s intolerable conditions. Hell, just look at the suicide rates across economic levels. Impoverished countries & areas have sky high suicide rates. Are they gonna tell me the highest suicide rates in Lesotho, Guyana & Eswatini are due to mental illness? No, it’s because people can’t afford to fucking eat. And the same thing happens in “rich countries” although nobody will admit it.
Suicide will not end until a bare minimum of food, shelter and dignity is allowed for each human. I don’t see that in the suicide prevention budgets. They’re too busy putting up billboards and running ads on tv.
““Call this worthless phone number, if it doesn’t fix you then it’s your fault bc we tried!””
–>Exactly that! If we call, it doesn’t fucking help us in the least bit, and sometimes they make us feel WORSE. And if we don’t call, society blames us for “not trying.” It’s damned if you do and damned if you don’t.
–>”Help is available” is the biggest fucking lie. What “help” do they give other than to parrot what the ruling class want the masses to believe? Which is “you’re not depressed bc of shit living or environmental conditions which were done by us, but it’s all in your head, and you need to take this pill and that pill that WE provide that doesn’t help you but numbs you of your shit conditions to shut you up”
“The truth is nobody wants to put the effort into actually fixing people’s intolerable conditions. Hell, just look at the suicide rates across economic levels.”
–>Exactly! NO ONE talks about the fucking obvious, that it is SHIT economic conditions that’s driving ppl to be depressed and suicidal. But we are all being pushed a narrative that “it’s all in our heads” and that “it’s all our own faults” etc etc. so the rich can continue to plunder and pillage us.