I can’t think clearly anymore. I mean I’ve been depressed for long awhile, but was never NOT able to think clearly before. My brain feels like mush. I don’t know if I’ve got brain damage (your brain atrophies when you have depression and also when your physical health declines, and I have both).
I can’t explain it. I mean I can think- like add 2+2 or whatever, but I can’t think CLEARLY. It’s more than not being able to concentrate. I can’t explain it.
That’s why I am apprehensive about taking that leap and expatting to a totally new country. How am I going to make it if my brain isn’t working properly? But I also know that the longer I stay here in this situation, the worse my health and my brain will get.
RN I can’t think clearly. And my fucking shit neighbor is making me sick with the vibrations/bass he turns on.
But IDK also how much is the blame on the fucking neighbors vibrations and my own inability to think clearly. I mean, it’s been happening since around 2021 when my thinking has declined. 2021 is when my fucking toenail fungus started spreading and have had to deal with that DAILY since.
I also had a friend that said my speaking/mental ability has declined since I moved to X state after covid 2020. I have no reason to doubt what she said so maybe I am cognitively declining. I mean I am middle age but chronic health problems WILL fuck with your brain.
Well it doesn’t help that my shit neighbors really are fucking with my health/brain bc whatever bass/vibrations they turn on really is fucking hurting my body and brain. And they’re doing it on purpose. Fucking dick.
So it’s probably a mix of BOTH cognitive decline + my asshole neighbors disturbing my brain