Seriously speaking I feel I’m unworthy in all aspects . I’m insecure everything about me . Today’s my birthday and I’m diving to the deeper depths of sadness . I don’t know what I have in life …. Just living some void shit …. My existence doesn’t have any meaning. I don’t expect anything from anyone but that’s making me more isolated and depressing. Idk whom to say these thoughts . I don’t want to share to anyone I know . Cuz they will not value or respect my feelings especially the closed ones . The person I love is making me feel like it’s smtg one sided . I feel like I’m in some situationship . I feel like I want to sit in a beach sand without anyone around and stare the sea till I’m fed up of it .
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Well happy birthday. Mines is this month as well. It’s most likely going to be depressing too, but you’ll have ur love one there to celebrate it. Best of luck to you though.
There’s something haunting about telling someone Happy Birthday on a suicide website. Nevertheless, Happy Birthday, Butto.
Being at the beach alone does sound nice. The sound of the tide caressing the sand, almost as if its saying, “Shhhhh”…it’s like mother nature herself is telling you to be quiet for a moment, to just close your eyes and listen….people ruin all of that. The beach with noisy people around is insufferable. A quiet, isolated beach is sacred ground, imo.
IDK, it’s all in how you look at it; Happy Birthday, one year less you have to live through
I’m not a fan of the beach, mainly because of the smell. Am I the only one who can’t stand the smell? Nude beaches seem like they might be at least interesting
but yeah, one year closer to the grave. Every minute that ticks by is a minute you no longer have to live through. It gets progressively more statistically likely that you’ll die, and birthday? that’s a huge chunk gotten through.
I like chunking a lot, it’s how I deal with unpleasantness, breaking it down into smaller chunks, usually in terms of percentages or fractions. Average life expectancy is 76, so a year down is 1/76, 1.4% down, whatever percentage left to go. I felt really good when I passed the 33% mark, less than 2/3rds left huzzah. Also, the first third is the worst, objectively based on old people I’ve talked to