Right after a big loss? Okay, but to me that’s giving too much power to who or what you lost. I was pretty suicidal after I lost my job….. but then I thought about how that would look; they took so much from me, but when I die it’s going to be on my terms, my time table.
because screw em. Sure, they counted for something when they were here, but now they’re gone? Wait a few days, a few weeks even, does the world seem as empty? that’s when to do it. Also, pills? you’re more likely to screw up your liver and or kidneys than to die. Actually what’s most likely is you’re going to throw up.
seems like a waste of a good drunken/high night is all I’m saying. Go watch funny movies, or scary movies, whatever makes you giggle. Because screw the rest of the world. Serious decisions suck, embrace the silly nonsense meaninglessness of it all.
Fuckkkk. There is so much fucking untapped potential because the night is young! Get more drunk. Get more high. Get more fucked! Carpe noctem! You dont understand how amazing this opportunity is right now. By the time you sober up you won’t even want to die anymore.
On a more serious note: never let them win man. Never let your enemies win. Don’t let them determine your fate. You will not reap destruction. Your life is not their game. From a pawn to a knight. From hex to zen. From sorrow to serenity one day at a time.
I said no. Sober me still wants to die. I have the right pills including antinausea, I haven’t been suicidal for over a decade and not settled in a good exit plan.
I totally get the not giving them the satisfaction thing but this person is different, they probably wouldn’t even find out. I was suicidal before them, with them, and I will be long after, she was just the one glimmer of light in my otherwise destroyed and chaotic life. It was never meant to be but I had hoped for a little more time.
Thank you suicide project friends, this place is therapeutic. <3
I went back and read some of your older posts. It seems like you went through a break up with a special lady. Those are easy enough to move past and process those emotions. The course of action I recommend is to go stoic and never shed a single tear in her name. Four months isn’t that bad in the grand scheme of things. Definitely no reason to get suicidal over man. I rarely if ever think back to a past lover or remember them fondly, I never speak of them. I only use that energy to propel me forward.
Hello. I’ve read your other post. I’m sure you’re not having a good time this month after your break up. I know stuff like that can tear the insides of someone. I’ve dealt with it myself. I’m not sure that’s the main reason why you’re feeling suicidal, but I do hope next year is better. I can’t say it will be and yeah, more bad things can happen, but all u can do is just hope for the best. I’m glad you’re still here fighting. Merry early Christmas.
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Right after a big loss? Okay, but to me that’s giving too much power to who or what you lost. I was pretty suicidal after I lost my job….. but then I thought about how that would look; they took so much from me, but when I die it’s going to be on my terms, my time table.
because screw em. Sure, they counted for something when they were here, but now they’re gone? Wait a few days, a few weeks even, does the world seem as empty? that’s when to do it. Also, pills? you’re more likely to screw up your liver and or kidneys than to die. Actually what’s most likely is you’re going to throw up.
seems like a waste of a good drunken/high night is all I’m saying. Go watch funny movies, or scary movies, whatever makes you giggle. Because screw the rest of the world. Serious decisions suck, embrace the silly nonsense meaninglessness of it all.
Fuckkkk. There is so much fucking untapped potential because the night is young! Get more drunk. Get more high. Get more fucked! Carpe noctem! You dont understand how amazing this opportunity is right now. By the time you sober up you won’t even want to die anymore.
On a more serious note: never let them win man. Never let your enemies win. Don’t let them determine your fate. You will not reap destruction. Your life is not their game. From a pawn to a knight. From hex to zen. From sorrow to serenity one day at a time.
I said no. Sober me still wants to die. I have the right pills including antinausea, I haven’t been suicidal for over a decade and not settled in a good exit plan.
I totally get the not giving them the satisfaction thing but this person is different, they probably wouldn’t even find out. I was suicidal before them, with them, and I will be long after, she was just the one glimmer of light in my otherwise destroyed and chaotic life. It was never meant to be but I had hoped for a little more time.
Thank you suicide project friends, this place is therapeutic. <3
I went back and read some of your older posts. It seems like you went through a break up with a special lady. Those are easy enough to move past and process those emotions. The course of action I recommend is to go stoic and never shed a single tear in her name. Four months isn’t that bad in the grand scheme of things. Definitely no reason to get suicidal over man. I rarely if ever think back to a past lover or remember them fondly, I never speak of them. I only use that energy to propel me forward.
Hello. I’ve read your other post. I’m sure you’re not having a good time this month after your break up. I know stuff like that can tear the insides of someone. I’ve dealt with it myself. I’m not sure that’s the main reason why you’re feeling suicidal, but I do hope next year is better. I can’t say it will be and yeah, more bad things can happen, but all u can do is just hope for the best. I’m glad you’re still here fighting. Merry early Christmas.