A heavy feeling , my heart weighs like a ton . I cant bear this pain , feels like I can rip it out of my chest . Why world is being this much cruel . Hate this feeling . Hatred Hatred Hatred …. When bad things happen to me all i feel is hatred . I am being misanthropic on its peak . Come on why. I dont belong here . I hate people . I am just a dust in this whole universe . All i can think about and ask is Why Why Why . At this range im losing my mind . I dont like anyone except my closed ones . Even they would not understand me properly at many ocassions .But i have no other go ….. without them I cant be here existing . They have stood with me at times . That matters right . But no one person in this world understands my feelings , what i think , what i want , what i like . There is no one . I had one grandmother who selflessly made me happy and understands me at my hard times . I have no one to cry about what i think . Hope everyone goes to hell . Because of this i dont want to understand anyone around me . Why should i do it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to drown in a ocean among the calm waves . Want to go deeper deeper deeper . All this drama is not worth living and hurting my feelings and emotions .