I feel like I don’t belong here anymore. It could be the world or maybe just the place where I am now and maybe going or moving to a different country might change things for the better. Are all the trial and tribulations worth it in our lives, what do you think?
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Well, the premise I’ve been under for awhile is that the place where I am (Oklahoma) specifically is bad for my physical and mental health. No one has been willing or able to help me prove or disprove it.
I don’t even want to go as far as another country to check this out, because going to another country involves work permits and a lot of paperwork that I don’t have the energy for. I don’t think that the United States is so without place for me that I’m ready write off the entire swath.
That being said, if another country wants to make a play for me, please, I’d be open to such a thing. I’m not a hot commodity.
I can imagine it being worth it. To survive all this, get out of this place, live for the first time in my life, that would be worth it to me.
unfortunately if you ask me right now that’s a pie in the sky dream. Getting out, freedom is a big ask, and getting away from your problems is a lot more complicated than it looks like.
Some people like to travel and work in different countries…most of them usually enjoy that experience from what I’ve heard.
But you probably need to have high energy and be a go-getter and also pretty capable being alone and independent a lot.
The only thing keeping me here is fear of botching my at.tempt but the good thing is that there are reliable ways to go…but nothing is guaranteed.
The bigger reason is I care about a couple of family members and wouldn’t want to leave them ‘high and dry.’
Also I have some goals I’d love to try to achieve in life before I move on to the next life and I feel they’re reachable for me…but it’s the day-to-day bs I’m dealing with that is preventing me from moving forward, but I’ll keep at it.
But life is not worth living if you don’t have a decent amount of money, that’s what it really boils down to. That’s on top of having good health and being young, attractive…lacking those things, it becomes very difficult, or just not worth living imo.
Still if you have health and money but are older, say 40s, 50s…you can still get most of what you really want and that’s why I keep going. 60 and beyond is pointless.
I wish I was more serious about accumulating money through hard work when I was younger but honestly I was always looking for the short-cut, until my 40s when I realized I was failing and had to get in line like everyone else.
The ones who ‘make it’ either won a lottery ticket, had connections or got very lucky…the ones on the lowest rungs have to fight (and suffer) the most…and rarely ever succeed. If not for the people I care for, then pulling the plug on this mediocre existence would’ve been easier and thankfully we have Maid here.