I started chatting with a man on the internet about 1 1/2 year ago. Long story short, I have lost all of my retirement and had to quit work in order to have access to it. I have lost around $250,000.00 to this man. I have about $50.00 to my name. I am 57 years old and not in good health. My family knows I have been talking to this man; but they don’t know I have given him so much money. I would be too ashamed and embarrassed to tell them. My only out is to commit suicide. I have already written my note.Â
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Dont try pills it’ll just make you sick. Money comes and goes so I would try and stick it out but if you really feel you are ready go then try drowning yourself or using a helium hood.
Your a coward running like a dog with its tail btw its legs, money is a material, unimportant thing, its not worth giving up your life, an it was stupid to give a man your money, i think you understand that right, you made a mistake, but you have to pick yourself up, dust your self off, an keep going, that’s what makes us human, our mistakes ,its not the end of the world, an i understand you feel embarrass but you sound like you need the help, so suck it up woman up an keep going, cause my dear there is nothing in this world worth giving up your life for, talk to god maybe he can help not all at once but slowly you will fine your way.
Stop talking to this man! Or stop giving him money and see if he continues to talk to you. It sounds like he’s taking advantage of a kind soul.
Please, please don’t. You have family!
What you say is true It’s gonna be embarrassing and its gonna suck. But you have to do it. You have to get your reactions. They probably won’t even be the ones you expect.
You have been on this earth a long time. Do you really want to let this sorry excuse of a man win? If you go he wins. Game over.
Be a fighter. I know you can be. Go after him. Alert the authorities. TELL YOUR FAMILY!
If nothing else. Fight for a reason to live.
DON’T END YOUR LIFE , DON’T GIVE UP , REACH OUT TO ME.
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.†No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.†No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.†They will die. Their hearts will break. They will hurt, more than you ever could. They will cry, scream, and break down. They’ll believe it’s all just a dream, praying to wake up. Except, they won’t feel that for a few seconds, or a few days, not weeks, nor months. They will feel that until the day they die. Everyday will be hell. They’ll think of you ever second. They’ll hate themselves for not being able to help or save you. They’ll wish they could die too. They’ll want to give up, just to be with you. They won’t be ever be happy again. They won’t smile. They won’t go back to their daily routine. They’ll die every time they walk past your room, or see a picture of you, or think of a memory with you. They’ll think, but stay quiet. They’ll visit your grave, feeling a knife go through their chest every time. And every morning when they wake up, no matter how long it’s been, they’ll wake up to thinking they’ll see you, only to be let down once again. And every night, they will cry themselves to sleep, because even though they refuse to admit it, know you’re gone forever.Before you decide to take your life, think of your family, burying you. Yes, your own mother and father are planning your funeral. It’s supposed to be the other way around, but it’s not. They’ll have to call the cops, sign a death certificate, pick out clothing, buy a tomb stone, a casket, pick out flower arrangements, and more; All for their child’s funeral. The morning of your funeral, everyone who loves you is wearing black. Tears are streaming down their face, while their heart is breaking. Everyone who you thought didn’t need you, or didn’t care, are waiting in line to see you. They aren’t waiting in line at a party, or a graduation, or at a wedding reception. They’re waiting to see you, hands folded, lifeless, in a casket.Before you decide to take your life, think of everyone you will be hurting. Don’t you dare so no one, because absolutely everyone will be affected. Your grandparents, won’t have a grandchild anymore. Your parents, won’t have a child anymore. Your brother or sister, won’t have a sibling anymore. Your pet, won’t have an owner anymore. That person you sit next to in class, won’t feel your presence anymore. Your teacher, won’t have a student anymore. That time your grandparents told you no, will haunt them forever, thinking it is their fault, that you are now dead. That time your parents yelled at you, will haunt them forever, thinking if they didn’t yell at you, you would still be here. That time your sibling said they hated you, will hate themselves, because they believe you would still be alive if they said they loved you instead. Those kids who made you feel bad, will wish they were dead too, because if they just smiled at you instead, you would be here. That teacher that you didn’t meet her expectations, will feel like a failure, because you would still be here, if she believed in you. Everyone, who has ever been in your presence, will hurt, because if they showed you they cared, you would still be here.
Before you decide to take your life, think. Don’t just think of yourself, think of the consequences for everyone else. No one’s life will be the same again. That person who God made specially for you, won’t have you. That happiness that was waiting for you, will never show again. Before you decide to take your life, realize that you may be ending your pain, but you’ll be starting a lifetime of everyone elses.
If you are feeling alone, and think that suicide is the only way out:
My ask is open, and I’m always here. I’ll never judge you. I’ll try to help you.
Talk to me :/ if this makes you feel worse, please email me, im here and i CARE!! your a complete stranger but i care, and i’ve been exactly where you are, reach out to me :3 Please don’t give up hope
– I RECENTLY SAVED A YOUNG 32YR OLD WOMAN on here , and heres her story,
http://suicideproject.org/2012/07/thank-you-alexa/
I can help and im here.. i never left her, and i’ll never leave you, no matter how many times you push me away, i’m always here!
If you live by yourself, or your in a situation where your parents or anyone doesn’t care, I DO. Talk to me
you have power untold,you have the power of trust!!!! you have the power to love!!!you have the ability to give….this person is the weak one not you …..just try to stay one day at a time…..
before you do anything you could regret (if there’s an afterlife):
are you sure that saving face is really worth taking your own life ? you have a family, are you convinced killing yourself before giving them a chance to really understand is the thing to do ? leaving a note is better than nothing, but I’m not sure it’ll be enough to appease their minds
“how come we had no idea of what she was planning to do ? how could we be so oblivious to this ?” (assuming your family cares about you)
if your attempt were to fail, wouldn’t that be more embarassing ?
*even more embarrassing