Please don’t.

It sounds weird, but I’ve been in a way, staking your profile on here since you sent me your first post. That’s how much I care. Why? Because if you DO do it, I don’t want to learn from some depressing story on the news. Either way it wouldn’t be any fun… Maybe it’s because I don’t want another Aunt Cheri. Well, that’s actually one reason… Another reason? Because you are my closest friend. Even though I’ve only seen you in person twice, you are the only one that knows about 90% of my secrets. I just wish you would tell me when you want to swallow a bottle of pills, jump from the edge, die. In all  honesty (actually, more like 98% honesty), I don’t want to think you will do it. If you were to do it, you would have tried a lot more seriously. I know, that is really bitchy, but still. There’s something holding you down. Something keeping you from dying. I think it’s that same thing that made me freak out and tell my mom I had taken over 40 pills on my 14th birthday.
But, theres that 2% of me that believes you. That 2% that believes someone (most likely your dad, I’m assuming)  will push you over the edge. That someone will give you a reason to kill yourself. And that 2% is slowly killing me. And I wish it would just go away…
Please, Devin (and every other teen who wants to kill themselves), don’t do it. Because, right now on this earth, are at the very least, 17 people (I say 17, because 7 is a VERY magical number.) who would rather be burned alive than hear that you killed yourself. Whether you have met them yet or not. You see, I have this theory, that if one person dies, the entire world and it’s future or present events can be altered. Say you cure cancer when you are older, then if you die now, then the world will be down millions of cancer patients. Say you meet a stranger in your future, and you are her reason for being alive, then if you die now, she will die later, and then that will ultimately change the future too. This probably makes no sense, and now we probably are all wondering how the hell I got to running off on this tangent, I don’t know either. But still YOU ARE FUCKING IMPORTANT. Don’t believe me? I am one of those 17 people who would rather burn alive than hear of your death.