ok so this is my first time ever doing anything like this i just need to get it out soo here i go .
ok so it all started when i was around 3 my dads so called best friend started tuching me and maken me kiss things that were bad . he did that till i was around 7 then he started putting his fingers in me an lickin me .i told my grandmoher and father tha this was happening and they didnt believe me they still made m go over to his house no matter how hard i cried .he started rapping me he started to get very violent when was 12 cuz i started to fight back and yell and scream so he would hit me to shut me up he would choke me gag me everythng u can think of that fucker did it to me till i was 14 (he stoped cuz he died)…
i went to my dads house pretty much every weekend i stopped goin cuz he was drunk on night and i woke up and he was n my bed naked play with himself beside me ..i called my granmother and told her what happend and asked her to come get me she called me a lier and told me i have to stop maken this kinds of storys up and hung up the phone ..i tried to kill my self thy put me in a hospital i come home go back to school and a boy in my class dragged me into the boys bathroom and tried to rape me i kicked his ass good and I GOT CHARGEDÂ . im 15 here
so now im 18 i met this so i thought awsome guy and all he did was rape and beat me for 2 years one night he came home from the bar or what ever with a few of his friends and all 4 of them took there sweet time with me i screamed and cried out so lound i lost my voice for a week or so i called the police and we went to court and the charges got dropped cuz one of the guys that rapped me is a judges son .
so now im 22 i moved away thinkin i can start a new life ..one night i was wlkin home late from work it was around 2 am and the next thing i know im in a car with 3 guy3 they took me a hotel nd u no th rest when they left m there coverd in my own blood and crien i took a shower then called 911 they found one of the guys (the one who put the hotel room in his name)  he got 6 years they found out that he did it to 2 other girls and if it wasnt for me callin 911 he would still be doin it today
I was at my grandparents house a lil while ago and i had to tlk to her about y she let all that stuff happend to me when i was younger and she freaked out and said ur still goin on about that shit we got in to a big fight i left and never spoke to anyone in my family since .i am now 23 and im trien to get over everything but its so fuckin hard someday i just wanna take a lil pill and never wake up
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I dont know what to say, but I just want to send you some love and let you know someone out there cares! Dont ever give up my friend you have come so far.
They may have had there way with your body but they can never touch your spirit. Dont let this break you turn it around and let it make you! For what dont kill you only makes you stronger. You have alot to offer this world. Dont give up! your doing well I know because your still here. xo
WELL that is a long sad post. I can’t really offer much help..what can you say to sepme whos been through so much? I’m amazed that you’ve survived through all that..I really feel bad now. Cuz i can’t think of what to say to you other than I’m sorry..Oh and your grandparents suck flr not believing you :/ have you ever tried talking to a professional? It could help..
I’m so proud of you!
Never stop fighting!
I believe you.
I believe in you.
You may want to find someone special to talk too, a mentor, a therapist.
You are not alone.
You can heal.
Good luck!
Going in one more round when you don’t think you can – that’s what makes all the difference in your life. You’re gonna have to go through hell, worse than any nightmare you’ve ever dreamed. But when it’s over, I know you’ll be the one standing. You know what you have to do. Do it
That sucks if you need someone im here